Cluster Fuck

I have too much going on at the same time and too much demand for my time simultaneously. It is annoying and stressful, I wish I could get off of this roller coaster of work and tasks. The thing I wish would stop happening the most is the unexpected bills.

I am tired of having to pay for things I didn't want to pay for. My latest unexpected bill waiting to happen is the AC Blower Motor in my car ceased to function. I can't seem to figure it out and it is very upsetting. I didn't do anything for this to happen. So I am livid about it and I have a bad feeling it is going to cost me an arm and a leg to repair. I expect to pay at most 400 dollars.

I (this is my own fault) bought Iron Maiden tickets months in advance on purpose so I could get good seats and a good price. I paid close to 200 dollars for two people including parking costs. We have box seats.

I am anticipating that I need to pay for part of a plane ticket for someone at one point. Again not happy about this. It will be at most 400 dollars.

I am hoping that my fiance will get a raise at one point and be the person bringing in a fantastic amount of money. Not that my financial woes will be over but at least I have a much larger cushion.

I am going to be over worked these next few weeks... it will not be pleasant.

Hardware

So I was asked again to work on a piece of hardware for someone and as much as I want to it would be rather difficult to do, however this person is right, I should try to work on this item because it is a great idea, but I am afraid to do so because electronics make me uneasy.

Ironic huh, I am a EE and CE and I am afraid of working with electronics because honestly I am not always 100% sure of what I am doing and that makes me very uncomfortable. I wish I had more confidence in the area. Especially since it could be potentially expensive to make mistakes or screw up. Specifically with test hardware. I do not wish to damage my test hardware.

I am going to continue to sit down and figure out my problems here. I need to learn and relearn everything I didn't learn through trial and error.

I think I am going to start with a basic fucking radio and see where it takes me. A CLR circuit or an RC circuit, which ever gets me to my goal.

NY and its Realty Can Suck It

First and foremost I want to say up front; I hate Florida before people think this is an all out attack on NY and its dwellers (only the subset that no one likes y'know the obscenely rich). Having been to NY 3 times (not that - that is a lot) here is what I have gathered, it is an over glorified big overpopulated dirty city. It smells and there are too many people running amok. I don't like that, which is a personal preference.

The rich mother fuckers that live in certain burros can kiss my hairy ass when it comes to realty though. I understand that finding a place to live there is difficult and expensive. Well that is all fine and well if you live in NY, I don't live there, so I don't care... until recently. Some asshole from NY bought a house that I was going to buy for sticker price, which is stupid because the fucker over paid grossly. Thanks asshole for making it okay for shit head down here to over price their fucking houses. That shit is not okay here because we get paid less, have to pay for gas and car insurance. The asshole is renting the house too, not even living in it.

I swear when I get rich, I am going to ruin NY's housing by buying out all of the overly priced stupid ass houses and such and rent them out for shit. Fuck you 1,000,000 dollar small piece of shit studio apartments, I will buy that shit up and rent it out for 500/month. I will put Florida pricing in NY.

Suck it NY.

Big dirty city with posers.

Religion != Race

Religion is not a race. I don't want to hear people refer to there race as being "Jewish." I could care less what the dictionary defines race as because it is wrong. The dictionary is wrong because it has fallacy directly in the definition:

Race - noun - A group of persons related by common descent or heredity.

So as you can see Judaism falls under the race definition, but hey guess what! There are two problems here:

1. Race overlap

2. Converting from one race to another race is physically impossible.

1. Race overlap is what I am referring to as when someone is race A physically and then they say they are Jewish, which would be race B. This is not possible. You can only physically be race A or B not both. A XOR B, not A OR B.

2. Converting from race A to race B is physically impossible. You can indeed switch religions, you cannot stop being a race. That is a physical thing, not a made up idea. So when someone can figure out how to convert me from what I am, to Japanese, let me know...

I really don't think you can argue with me here. I am right about this. This falls under the category of "Say what you mean." Don't just imply stuff.

Money

If I had a ridiculous sum of money, i would pay for my mother's family to come to the states. I would help the families without jobs right now. I would buy the island of Haiti and set things straight.

I would get my fiance a brand new car of her choice. I would help people that were down on their luck. I would love to give people who need cars, fixed up used cars to get from point A to point B.

I would try to fix small problems in society and in my immediate surroundings. I would lobby the state government to split Florida in two to balance things out.

I would lobby federal government to split the us in two so we can end the class war fare and all that bs.

I Feel Like Shit

I feel like absolute shit right now, but I don't mean physically, I mean mentally. There are days where I feel good and then then there are days where I feel morbidly depressed and I start to have these damn haunting thoughts all over again. Anything triggers them because my mind automatically associates my unhappy experiences with objects and other thoughts. Most of my unhappy experiences are bouts of embarrassment. The same way I felt while it was happening is the same way I feel when i think about it, so it is like reliving the experience.

The problem I have is that not only do I relive the experience, but all of my thoughts haunt me in a serial nature. One after another they batter me, like a dog pile, like a crowd of mean children singling out a single person and taunting him mercilessly. So i have a big fucking problem, but i am not sure how to fix it. I am mentally unwell and i think i need help.

I am afraid to go to a psychologist because of the expense and the idea that they will give me drugs.

IIS7 Can Suck It

I will admit that IIS7 is very dreamy in comparison to IIS5 and IIS6 because it flows nicely and it has a very nice inheritance system. Best feature of all of course is its application pools. However there are a few things that I am going to point out that some people are going to be annoyed by, but I don't care because for you to have opposition to what I am going to describe is plain stupid and biased.

I like Microsoft products, but we all know, especially power users, that sometimes Microsoft will do things that are just terribly stupid. Joining that ever growing list is:

IIS7

IIS5 and IIS6 were the easiest to setup, I never had any serious problems setting them up or using them. Very easy to use, only encountered the dot net issue where the dot net installation had to be reinstalled. No biggy works like a dream after repairing the dot net side.

First trial:

Installation on Windows Vista. Vista is a flaming piece of crap. That being said IIS7 is a windows feature. Naturally I should be able to install it on a Vista machine if the damn option is available. Logical right? Wrong... it just doesn't work. I got machine.config errors no matter what. I spent 6 hours trying everything to appease the IIS7 beast. No luck so I went back to IIS5.

Second Trial:

I set it up for other people on windows 7 machines, with no problem for the most part. I even use it on windows server 2008. No problems, so I figured it just doesn't work on Vista. Wrong...

Third trial:

I took a fresh install of windows 7 professional on a brand new laptop. I tried using IIS7 and the first thing I get is an error right off the bat. I am told by IIS that I have things in my web.config that are unrecognizable. This didn't sound right because it worked in IIS5 and IIS6, but not in IIS7? So I started looking around and realized it was missing components so I went to add and remove features for IIS and no matter what I did the other features would not install. I kept getting errors. So I uninstalled IIS7 and reinstalled it, this time it installed well, but much to my dismay it still didn't work when I tried to run my web application... this is mind boggling. So I then started doing some deep googling and finally finally finally I found out why I was getting errors (500.21 error specifically) and it was because there was a missing DLL! The isapi.dll was missing from the modules section! HOW? WHY? I don't know but it took 6 hours to figure out and I am very very unhappy about it. This is by far the stupidest thing I have ever seen. What I explained was the short version mind you.

So to those of you that are kissing the IIS7 ass, I'm sorry to break it to you, but it isn't flawless. In fact is very far from it, down right disgusting actually to take 6 hours to figure out why this stupid software isn't working!

Mind you, if someone has Vista, that is what they have therefore don't tell them to just change their OS, that is not fair to that person. Software costs money unless you are going to pirate it which I don't recommend at all. My stance on pirated software is, "If you can afford it, buy it." Other people will say that it works on the Server OS versions (2003, 2008, 2008 R2), this is not true at all if you check google. There are plenty of people regardless of the goddamn OS that are having many issues with IIS7. This is goddamn ridiculous and unfair to the people who need to work. This isn't a fucking hobby for me (partially it is) I do this as my job.

Some people say, just use the integrated development server in Visual Studio... How about no? Casini (the web development server) is crap and unreliable. You use that as a last resort or when you don't have IIS available to use. Casini has a bunch of issues all on its own, it is inaccurate and has problems keeping the most current versions of files you just compiled current. I avoid Casini when I can. Plus you want your software to run in a production like environment at all times to avoid "surprises" when you get to your production environment.

The point here is, IIS7 has some fucking stupid issues, it isn't plug and play at all like IIS5 and IIS6 were. People need to wise up and stop being fan boys when it comes to shit like this and Microsoft needs to take the heat that people give them for this. There is shitty documentation on these ridiculous issues from Microsoft.

When IIS7 is fixed it is going to be great, just like IIS5 and IIS6.

My advice for people who are having issues setting IIS7 up, google the shit out of your problem. Every time you make an adjustment the error message may change, be aware of this. Make sure you have proper permissions set on your files. If all else fails, setup another computer to run XP with IIS5 or IIS6.