Moving Target

So my fucking closing date has been shifted. It was supposed to be this Friday, but nope title company fucked that up because they are waiting on a goddamn bank. Probably the fuckers who are going to buy my goddamn loan. Fuck this shit.

I am so pissed off right now about the whole situation I could literally just scream out loud in frustration. I don't understand how there could be any fucking delay at this point totally fucking ridiculous. The lady I spoke to from the title company gives me a line of shit about why they are late and she implies it is my fault. That pissed me off even more. The shit they were complaining about is a month old so they don't have any room to complain or blame anyone except themselves.

I hate this shit. My Realtor isn't worried, but I am shitting my pants. We are moving regardless because this is a load of bullshit that we are waiting on these fucking people to do their goddamn job. I will be so relieved when all this is over. I will be happy to never have to deal with this bullshit again at least for 5 years or more. Why can't this shit just run smoothly why does it always have to be a fucking mess? To make matters worse I have to resign from my job soon and this is stalling that process.

Blather

I am really goddamn tired right now from this whole house experience. It is supposedly over this week. I fucking hope so because I am about get ass raped financially yet again. Fucking incredible. I have started over before, this won't be the first time. Now depending on the situation I might pay off the so called personal loan or 2nd mortgage from my own pocket.

I won't be happy about that, but fuck it I am investing my fucking money into this house so I can get on with my life. I am so goddamn tired of not being able to settle and be grounded.

I also have stopped collecting opinions from everyone regarding my situation because at the end of the day it is no one's business except my own. I have gone against the grain before and come out on top repeatedly. So fuck everyone else right now. This is about me and what I want. I will figure out how to pay off that other 15K. It may happen through a refinancing or maybe I just pay it off entirely.

Next order of business, pay down my fucking student loans once and for all.

I will do my fed loans first, then attack the private loans. Then accumulate as much funds as possible.

I am going to pull out the stops on this one and call bullshit on everyone else who thinks they know better right now. They don't know the situation and they don't know what's going on in my life right now. So fuck it all.

Packing

Omg packing. We have packed and packed and packed so much shit already. There is just and endless supply of junk in our house. It is maddening. We are lucky because we have free tape and boxes. That is one expense we don't have to worry about which is great.

My closing costs are going to be about 11K, I hope they are less. After paying that I owe these ass hat sellers another 15K. These people have been the most inconsiderate bunch I have ever dealt with. It is annoying.

More later...

Creeping Around

When changing jobs, the part I hate most is the creeping around part. I hate having to tip toe around the office and pretend I am going to be here in a few weeks. It is hard to handle. It is more emotionally difficult to do than anything else because if you have people you don't want to leave behind, the hardest part is keeping your mouth shut and not letting them in on your secret.

It is a big secret and should remain that way until you get your offer letter. Once you get your offer letter, then you can proceed with your resignation letter. That part sucks even if you hate your boss. It sucks because you can never tell them the truth. It is all lies all the time. You need to calmly tell your boss some line of bullshit about why you are leaving. They may counter you, but if you are truly unhappy at your do not accept that offer.

Only after you accept your new position and you resign from your old position should you ever reveal to your coworkers or mouthy friends that you are making that change. Fuck everyone else you need to protect yourself.

It is about getting the best deal for yourself. I was a lot happier with the system at my old job. I want to wake up and want to go to work.

Tips on your Job

I have been told by various people that the salary I have been looking for is too high or that I am dreaming if I want to find a place where my boss isn't a complete nightmare. To all those people I say fuck you. No, the grass isn't always greener on the other side, but what I have learned from all of my experience so far is that if you want to get the workable job then you have to try to make as much change yourself as possible.

I switched jobs and every time I did I got a raise. I am making exactly what I want now. I left my old job because I hated my boss, I changed that part of my life. Then unfortunately I moved to a job where my new boss is also a giant douche. I am changing jobs again so I can change my boss again. I just happen to be lucky that my old boss was fired and my old company wants me back.

My point is if you hate your boss or your job you can change it. Don't tell yourself that it is like that everywhere and don't tell yourself you don't deserve a certain pay when you do. Fuck everyone else and shoot for what you want.

Packing

Packing sucks. I get home from work and I pack. I wish it was a more desirable activity to perform. What I especially hate about packing is when you have a bunch of small stuff you don't know where to pack. What is also pretty stupid is packing everything up just to unpack it all over again in the span of two weeks.

Sigh... it will all be over soon.

Post

Freaking out a little because it is time to move on again. Moving living spaces and moving jobs one more time and hopefully the final time. I just want it all to be over already.

I have to pool my funds together, pack everything up, go to closing and then finally move. Then I have to quit which is going to be a chore within itself.

When all that is done. I need to clear a month, accumulate funds and then pay off the 15K fuck you fee. Then I will work on my student loans. Holy hell it is almost over...