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My sister keeps contacting me repeatedly and I keep ignoring her. I hate my sister, I always have. She is just a miserable piece of shit and I am fairly certain that she is mentally ill. She lives in her own little world and refuses to come out of it. Anything that doesn't fit into her world she refuses or outright ignores. She has many pink elephants following her around and she ignores them all while they are cramped into any room she occupies.

I am the one puzzle piece in her life that doesn't fit into her weird and screwed up world so she is constantly trying to change me and I refuse and resist her constantly. Her most recent fuck up was at my wedding. She showed up even though she shouldn't have and think this was most apparent when she decided to sit like a pile of shit in the corner and sulk for the entire wedding. Then on her exit she ignored both me and my wife. She refused to be in the pictures and was just a general drag. She now pretends that none of that happened. More than that happened too, but I don't feel like bothering with how stupid it is.

Long story short I am ignoring her.

The Penguins with Guns

I hate motorcycle cops. I got another speeding ticket. Stupid fucking penguin cop hiding in the bushes got me and I had the fucking chance to make a U Turn to make a break for it, but who knows how much worse that would have made things. I hate these fucking smug assholes cops with a hard on to fuck everyone over.

I broke the law speeding and I accept that, but goddamn it - it's a stupid law to begin with. First off everyone was speeding already. They just chose me as the victim to be fucked over. I was passing a slow poke and they got me those pieces of shit. Those less than useful so called civil servants.

I already got my lawyer to handle this ticket again... this is the third fucking ticket I got in a 3 year span. Hate this shit. Speeding tickets are just revenue for the pigs to feed on, they can go to hell. I need to get a radar detector so I can save myself the money and trouble. I wish i could yell at the cops and give them a piece of my mind, but my first amendment right can be trampled on by the fucking pig asswipes. Go ahead and google what happens if you tell a cop to go fuck himself. They can arrest you for no reason because they can  claim disorderly conduct. So even though they are wrong they can make your life miserable by taking time out of your day and maybe even physically abusing you.

Fuck cops they are just failed graduates and rejects who only care about intimidation it feels like. Granted there are those who are nice and have a good moral compass but far and few on between. Lots of douche bags.

Sticking it to the man

So I am both very happy and very sad that I will be leaving my current job one more fucking time to move on to bigger and better things. I am happy because I wont have to deal with the douchbaggery of my current boss any longer. My drive to work will be five minutes and I wont dread going to work any longer.

I am sad because I am partially betraying my friend regarding employment. He gave me this job and now I am moving on for my own selfish interests. I am looking out for me. I will offer him an employment opportunity but it is up to him whether or not he gets it. I can only try to make amends.

Closing Lag and other Calamity

I love how I bent over backwards to get all of my fucking documentation in on time and in order so that I could meet my closing date, this mystical creature from the beyond, but I was then slapped in the face by my title company who for some fucking reason is behind the curve on my case/deal. Fucking annoying.

So now everything is chaotic and the people working to get this deal squared away are all pulling their fucking hair out. Meanwhile I have learned to stop giving a shit because I need to fucking move. I can't turn back.

Making things even cozier I got my goddamn offer letter finally so I can finally quit from this job.

Chaos.

Moving Target

So my fucking closing date has been shifted. It was supposed to be this Friday, but nope title company fucked that up because they are waiting on a goddamn bank. Probably the fuckers who are going to buy my goddamn loan. Fuck this shit.

I am so pissed off right now about the whole situation I could literally just scream out loud in frustration. I don't understand how there could be any fucking delay at this point totally fucking ridiculous. The lady I spoke to from the title company gives me a line of shit about why they are late and she implies it is my fault. That pissed me off even more. The shit they were complaining about is a month old so they don't have any room to complain or blame anyone except themselves.

I hate this shit. My Realtor isn't worried, but I am shitting my pants. We are moving regardless because this is a load of bullshit that we are waiting on these fucking people to do their goddamn job. I will be so relieved when all this is over. I will be happy to never have to deal with this bullshit again at least for 5 years or more. Why can't this shit just run smoothly why does it always have to be a fucking mess? To make matters worse I have to resign from my job soon and this is stalling that process.

Blather

I am really goddamn tired right now from this whole house experience. It is supposedly over this week. I fucking hope so because I am about get ass raped financially yet again. Fucking incredible. I have started over before, this won't be the first time. Now depending on the situation I might pay off the so called personal loan or 2nd mortgage from my own pocket.

I won't be happy about that, but fuck it I am investing my fucking money into this house so I can get on with my life. I am so goddamn tired of not being able to settle and be grounded.

I also have stopped collecting opinions from everyone regarding my situation because at the end of the day it is no one's business except my own. I have gone against the grain before and come out on top repeatedly. So fuck everyone else right now. This is about me and what I want. I will figure out how to pay off that other 15K. It may happen through a refinancing or maybe I just pay it off entirely.

Next order of business, pay down my fucking student loans once and for all.

I will do my fed loans first, then attack the private loans. Then accumulate as much funds as possible.

I am going to pull out the stops on this one and call bullshit on everyone else who thinks they know better right now. They don't know the situation and they don't know what's going on in my life right now. So fuck it all.

Packing

Omg packing. We have packed and packed and packed so much shit already. There is just and endless supply of junk in our house. It is maddening. We are lucky because we have free tape and boxes. That is one expense we don't have to worry about which is great.

My closing costs are going to be about 11K, I hope they are less. After paying that I owe these ass hat sellers another 15K. These people have been the most inconsiderate bunch I have ever dealt with. It is annoying.

More later...