Goddamn It

I had a strange adjustment to the working life and having a full time job. I love working, I don't love the work politics though and it makes me very uneasy. Some people are good at the work politics and can stomach it easily. I am very good at the work politics, but I can't stomach it well enough because I have a conscience. Some people call not having a conscience "business" I call it immoral practices or work politics.

Anyhow, I am scared. I am not afraid to admit it either. I am afraid of the future and I am having a hard time accepting that in order for me to get ahead in life I need to keep changing jobs every 1 to 2 years. This is stupid work ethic; I like seeing something I am working on grow and develop. I hate these damn work politics where there are no raises or a way to advance. I want a secure job where I can move up the damn ladder.

Currently I am in a position where that will probably not be the case. It is a job where I take what I get and not complain. The sad part is this work environment is better than a large corporate work environment, but there are no growth opportunities. I was promised growth, I was promised new technology, but then my manager changed and all those promises evaporated. Not his fault, he was promoted and given a new position, so a lazy ass could take his position. It is a complicated story.

Unfortunately, if I don’t see a change in July 2011, I will look for another job and I am out.