Beliefe

I really hate it when you try to explain something to someone on a serious note and all they can do is make fun of you as you tell them. They only get serious too when it concerns them or they deem it serious.

I don't think I have ever made fun of someone while they were telling me something serious. Its hurtful and makes you not want to tell that person or people anything again. They are now categorized as impersonal and untrusted for serious problems. Its disappointing. One thing I will not tolerate from people is telling someone they can't do something or that they will not achieve a reachable goal. Those people are antagonists and not the kind of people you want to hang around because all they want to do is see you not succeed so they themselves don't feel like losers.

I had, at one point, several friends like that. I would explain my ambitions to them and they would laugh. In reality I think they were just jealous and would tell me things to discourage me so that I wouldn't attempt anything so they themselves would not be proved wrong.

Well I say fuck those kinds of people, use them for what they are worth, then walk all over them to get to the top. I won't stop until I am at the top looking down. When I get there, I will rain piss down on them all. They will look up and beg me for money and I will send them to the streets to beg like the beggars they are.

Don't ever let anyone tell you - you cannot do something

Jealousy and Anger

I was listening to NPR the other day like I sometimes do and I heard this story: NPR: Young Entrepreneur... and I have heard stories like it before and every time I hear one I become very demotivated and almost morbidly depressed. Being 100% honest, which is what I do best, it is because I am very jealous and become angry that the success they are talking about is not my own. Mostly because these types of stories always portray that what the young entrepreneur is doing was so damn simple and gosh any moron could do it. I do have to agree that sometimes the ideas are indeed so fucking simple I should have thought of them. What does make me upset though is that a lot of these stories don't explain the amount of resources available and advantageous environments available to these people.

What pissed me off the most about this article/story was this "Young 22 Year Old Entrepreneur" does not carry a degree in engineering, yet she managed to make this contraption. I have two degrees in engineering and I haven't had a chance to use them yet. So I am jealous that someone younger than me, who does not have an engineering degree, simply looked up articles on the net and fabricated the device she fabricated. I would like to know how and why that was so easy for her to do. Which is why I was saying that she must have had resources available to her and her environment allowed her to do this pretty easily it seems. It takes a lot of effort to make a physical device of any kind because it is usually expensive, requires equipment which is costly and if you want to patent your idea it takes a shit-ton of effort and money. Minimum $3000 dollars for a provisional patent and if you want to make sure you get it done right you have to hire a patent layer. Don't believe me look it up on the USPTO website. So someone gave this 22 year old her funding. I can't afford to do anything like this (even though I really want to) and I am out of college and I have a fucking job that pays just under okay. The other side of this is that the contraption she developed isn't terribly complicated, but the instrumentation required for this requires at least 3 pieces of equipment:

1. Signal Generator (30 dollars min for a low functioning analog unit - up to $4000+ http://www.jameco.com/)
2. DC Power Supply (150 dollars min for a 30VDC@5A PSU single polarity unit - up to $4000+ http://www.mpja.com/)
3. Oscilloscope (~300 dollars min for a low end unit check out http://www.saelig.com/ - up to $4000+)

Each one of those pieces of equipment are pretty expensive no matter how you spin it. She mentioned ultrasound as the medium used to stimulate quartz crystals, I would imagine this would require equipment that can handle at least 2 Mega Hertz (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ultrasound), that being said it raises the cost of all of the equipment that needs to be used. Not so simple anymore huh? There is a part of this story that doesn't make much sense to me. Environmental advantages, resources and other help had to have been had here. I also don't like how she was running experiments at NASA... as if that is a daily occurrence for Female 22 year olds...

Perry seems to have always gone through life on fast forward. She was just in Houston running a zero-gravity experiment for NASA, where she was a student ambassador. She flew in a plane that went up and then down at very high velocity. 

What the fuck? No seriously what the fuck? Like how does that happen unless you know somebody? You need to have connections for this kind of stuff. In South Florida, these kinds of opportunities are taken away from everyone because unless you live in the white North Florida you are destined to be a loser with all of the wondrous corruption down here and lack of funding. All of our funding which is GENERATED IN THE SOUTH is given away to the white North.

So I am upset because they make it sound so fucking easy, like this is rather normal and any moron with a computer who looks up some articles on ultrasound can do this. I beg to differ. Goddamn it, I will commit suicide if I don't make it. I want success so bad I can taste it and no one will help me get there or hand me jack shit on a platter. I may not be a 22 year old girl with plenty of resources, but I do have a lot of good ideas and the know how - I just need the money and the time. So when I figure out a way to get a patent lawyer to help me out, I will make a move.

I made a lot of assumptions, but I don't care because that is what I took away from the story. Good for her I suppose...

Restaurant Service for Customers

This is a gigantic pet peeve of mine. I went to Ikea today to parooze what they have to offer for kitchens, bathrooms and bedrooms. All really great stuff, but one thing that annoyed me to no end was their food. Everything would have been fine with their self service Restaurant/Cafeteria deal if they wouldn't have crossed one line of mine and I am sure of other peoples'.

I got the Turkey Wrap that they offered. The ingredients that they claimed to be in the wrap were the following:

1. Turkey
2. Cheese
3. Wrap (not noted, but implied by the name)

"Great!", I thought to myself, because I really didn't like anything else they had to offer to me. There was a lot of fried breaded food and a lot of Swedish meatballs.

I got my wrap, coffee and a slice of chocolate explosion cake. I sat down and bit into the Turkey wrap, the first bite was fine, the second bite was slightly different... I thought it was my imagination, so I bit into it again and this time I got a mouth full of some yellow goop I am pretty sure I was not told was going to be in my fucking wrap. There was a type of mustard in my wrap... I am pretty sure the description that was written indicated "Turkey" and "Cheese" "Wrap", not fucking "Turkey Cheese Lettuce Mustard Wrap". If I knew there was mustard in it I wouldn't have gotten it. So I was trying to scarf it down (I was starving) and trying to ignore the fact that mustard was in it, but my mind got the better of me and I started to gag. I lost my appetite on top of that because I FUCKING HATE MUSTARD. I hate ALL condiments, mustard, mayo, ketchup, salad dressing etc... they are all fucking disgusting.

Ironically I do like steak sauce (yeah yeah one of the ingredients is ketchup, shut up) and almost all BBQ Sauce of any kind.

My point is, and this is a good fucking point in my opinion, they wouldn't dare putting peanuts or peanut butter in something else without indicating it first. So why is it okay for Restaurants and the like to not indicate this. I had the same problem with a certain bakeries. I, for a long time, would never get a Cinnamon role because there would always be RAISINS in my FUCKING CINNAMON ROLE! Again it says "CINNAMON ROLE" not "CINNAMON RAISIN ROLE". I went to Panera Bread, ordered a Turkey Sandwich which was described to be: smoked turkey, lettuce and your choice of bread. They fucking put Mayo in my sandwich without ASKING, I get up and tell them I won't eat it and they say, "But it comes with mayo!" I reply, "IT ISN'T IN YOUR DESCRIPTION!" It's not fucking obvious if you don't put it in the description you fucking idiots and it is also a really good way to piss off your customers. I think Burger King learned their fucking lesson with this because they had to keep remaking sandwiches when someone said, "OMG There is Tartar Sauce on this piece of shit!" I would get the fish sandwich and like clock work they would put Tartar sauce on it which is mayonnaise + relish or some disgusting green shit, which is even more disgusting.

One of my friends tards out when people put nuts on their brownies, he will sit there and pick off every fucking walnut until they are all gone. I agree, nuts do not belong on brownies!

So take a fucking hint, if you are going to ninja in a condiment, at least try to drop a fucking hint before someone eats it and nearly throws up. 

Ownus

I am currently learning a valuable lesson in business/development about how to get things that are really really important done the proper way. For example my idiot boss will not listen to me when I tell him that we need to secure our web services because right now anyone can attach themselves or make a reference to our web services effortlessly and steal our data.

His response the last three times I have told him this is, "ehmm... yeahh that's important..." but he never revisits the issues at hand, he just conveniently forgets it. Which is irresponsible and negligent. This man is incompetent.

The advice given to me is we need to document these things and get past the fact that someone won't believe you when you say something is a big problem. However this leads me to really dislike the fact that I have to go this far to get someone to listen to logic. If you cannot see that your house is on fire and I need to explain to you that your house is burning, then you are a negligent imbecile.

So taking the more positive approach, I will create these documents from now on explaining the more than obvious deal at hand. I don't feel that every scenario has to be like this, but unfortunately it is the way it is.

The fact remains that my boss is a moron.

Bad Times

Bad times are a brewing. One of my co-workers has got one foot out the door already and he doesn't even know it. If he gets let go I am not sure what I am going to do or how I am going to react. This is a sad sad situation and the worst part is he brought it on himself. He is to blame, he is a great guy, but he lacks skill and slacks off a looooooot.

Here is the reality, he under performed. Nice guy or not, he fucked himself. The next question is can we save him? The only way is if he is willing to understand that he is wrong and needs to learn the right way to do things.

Sides

A friend of mine and I disagree about something. Here is the argument:

Is it ethical for people to help people outside of their country, with respect to the poor and needy. This argument excludes family. We are talking about strangers.

My argument:

Help your countrymen first, don't go outside your own country when there are people right here at home that need that same help.

His Argument:

Help people that need it the most regardless of where they are. The squeaky wheel gets the oil.

So we have this opposing view and I think it is more important to help our folks here at home and fuck everyone else. I would rather invest into where I live instead of anywhere else. My buddy says that the homeless people here have got it made in comparison to other countries, but guess what... they are still homeless and it sucks.

If you were homeless and someone came up to you and said, "Man! It sucks that you are homeless, but at least you aren't a poor person in Cairo, they have got it real bad!" I'm pretty sure that would get you yelled at, beat up, mugged or murdered.

Our argument escelated and my buddy said that I shouldn't want to segregate everything and that we shouldn't be tribal. I don't agree, I don't see anyone from those countries helping us, so fuck them and I don't want their help. He said that we should work towards being a global nation where people can go back and forth between lands freely. I think he is wrong, not that I wouldn't like that, but it will never happen because of the differences between between people that will make them war. Essentially I think he is thinking up a pipe dream and that it is never going to happen because humans by nature are both tribal and selfish. If everyone was honest and said exactly what they were thinking then a majority of our problems would be gone.

So then I started asking him questions about how would he force everyone to live like that? He didn't have much of an answer and essentially the argument boiled down to what it always boils down to for us (we have a lot of these kinds of disagreements) which is anyone who was going to be disagreeable during this process would have to either be marooned or slaughtered. Essentially we need a benevolent dictator.

A benevolent dictator seems to be what our country needs, kind of like the king we had here from 2000 to 2008, y'know King George - George Dubbya Pretzel Eating Bush. We would need someone like him, but intelligent, not republican and has a very very good moral compass. The dictator would need to get everyone on the same page and anyone who has incredibly stupid views or arguments should be killed off. I know this is a dangerous path and a pipe dream too, but I think that this would help get this and other countries on the humane track. I would like to live in a world where all racists, bigots, zealous religious people, republicans and tea baggers were all dead. Our lives would be so much better than they are right now.

My one dream in life would be to have the powers of "Death" or like in the anime "Death Note" where the main character has a notebook where if he writes the name of who he wants to die, they will (there are more rules to it if you are wondering, look it up, great anime available on Netflix (subtitled! yay!). I would like to live my life like the Boon Dock Saints or Frank Castle aka The Punisher. I just don't see how we, as a society, can really work through our problems by talking through them. When we do that we allow people like Rick Scott to run Florida. He is a fucking Criminal! Then look at all the crazy bullshit that is going on with respect to Gays and Lesbians, they are treated as second rate citizens. They are being treated just like interracial couples were being treated like and are still to some degree being treated like. A bunch of people who are using their religious views as their reasoning in government are ruining other people's lives.

I hate these mother fuckers and I hope they all die. People like Pat Robertson or the very dead Reverend Falwell. These people don't help anyone, they all deserve to die.

SO... to avoid all this death and social cleansing, I see no other way but to separate our Countries into smaller Tribal nations. The US needs to stop being the world police and keep to their fucking selves.

Home Sweet Home

We were finally approved for a home, we just need to conduct the home inspection to make sure nothing major is wrong with the house and we should be go. I am just slightly worried about the fact that the pipes in the house must be old, I hope we don't need to replace them.

This is part one of my major plan, get this house, fix it up a little and move on to other large expenses. The goal is here to pay rent to myself aka a mortgage and eventually have it paid off. By the time the house is paid off I can siphon the rest of my income to savings for retirement and more.

The next big things are:

• Getting married (10K or more)
• Get new car (trade in + 5K or so)
• Get the wifey new car (trade in + 10K or so)
• Pay off student loans (after doing the above, I project two years max I can get the whole thing paid off)
• Everything else - live life a little easier - save money
• Spot my mom who always needs help paying for shit

Career Politicians

I am horribly disappointed with our government, which is what seems to be the general sentiments of most of the American people. I am goddamn sick and tired of the same crappy song and dance that these old white people tell sing for us. I am actually less disappointed with President  Obama because he is trying, I am not saying he is infallible, but he seems to be the only guy who tries to get anything done.

Our congress; the house and senate are the biggest bunch of do nothing losers and moochers. They fuck us over consistently with their dog and pony show and focus on the wrong fucking issues consistently. As far as I can tell they never actually do anything good for the American public because they don't seem to be listening to us.

Admittedly, I am not sure who to contact first and about what. I don't feel that they care either. I want to figure that all out though.

Things that I think should be done:

1. Since they congress can't get their shit together and we have been lowered to a AA credit rating, I think we should reduce their salaries by 1/3 for the "A" we lost. Every time we lose an "A" they should lose 1/3 rd of their Salary.

2. Congressmen should not be allowed to be re-elected so that they stop focusing on their fucking re-election and do some real work for the public. They will no longer have to worry about Lobbyists.

3. This one probably won't fly... Congressmen who bring up issues that are not important, such as gay/lesbian marriage should be shot and killed so they don't waste everyone's fucking time.

When is this stupid ass war going to end? If oil went down to 80 dollars a barrel why am I still paying over 3 dollars a gallon? Fuck these assholes who don't defend us, make being a politician unattractive and the people who really give a shit will rise.

Fuck you Boner
Fuck you Pelozi
Fuck you Reed
Fuck you all - except Bernie Sanders and Al Franken because they kick ass.

You all suck, do us all a favor and commit suicide.

The Fall of Facebook

If you are anything like me, which more than likely you aren't, then you are more concerned about your career staying afloat rather than keeping in contact with people you knew in high school. I predict that Facebook will be killed by two things:

1. People who don't want their employer or potential employer to be watching them will close their account and cease all online personal activiy.

2. People will switch from FaceBook to Google Plus, previously known as Diaspora.

There is going to be a movement soon of people who don't want their personal information to be so easily availabe online. What scares me is I googled my name and I found a bunch of things I am involved with online (minus this blog of course, cause this is an anonymous account).

I also have a bad feeling that a LinkedIn account will be expected of you during a new job interview.

Cred Dropper

We have this terrible problem at work right now where the web based program we work on is having problems with users not being able to utilize multiple sessions, killing existing sessions mistakenly and losing session data that stops them from using the program properly. So this is a big problem that my programming lead has decided to ignore for a while now.

I found this issue to be a huge problem and something we couldn't just ignore so I took it upon my self to figure out what to do. The first thing I did was put the userID and SessionID on the top of the page in efforts to see when the UserID would change to zero and when the SessionID would change. I warned my lead that this is what I was going to do and instead of discussing it with me he just said, "I don't want to talk about it anymore, just do it.".

So I did.

Then he comes to me after I did it, screen-shotted it and sent it to one of the clients for approval and tells me, "You are going to hate me for this, but that isn't going to production." So I got really fucking angry and started yelling at him, I had already taken a Claritin and drank some coffee which makes the Claritin react even better, the only side effect is it makes me very aggressive.

So I yelled at him, "Unless you have a good reason as to why, it will stay there, I am not removing it unless you give me a good reason. We need a solution and so far you haven't given me one. I have one so we are going to use mine."

He replies, "Because it is a security risk"

Me, "No it isn't, there isn't much you can do with the SessionID and the UserID isn't used anywhere on the site as input."

Him, "they can do SQL injection and hijack the session"

Me, "you are wrong, that is not possible, I already told you that the userID is just a primary key we use internally, they can't use it for shit. So give me a good reason as to why i should remove this."

Him, "Don't tell me I am wrong, I have 10 years of experience"

That is when he dropped his creds and I went from mad, to really fucking pissed off.

So I replied with, "So you are going on a hunch"

That pissed him off, so he drops his creds again and says, "it is a security risk and any security expert would agree with me, including an admin at one of the companies."

Me, "I remember you telling me you have more experience with windows forms and not asp.net web development."

So he cred dropped again...

At this point he was grabbing for straws and throwing anything at me so he could appear to be correct. This made me more upset so I retorted yet again: "you are wrong and the security experts would say this is just fine because they are meaningless numbers and the admin you are talking about is a NETWORK admin what the hell would he know."

He then said the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard, "If a hacker gains access to our database we are just making it easier for them to screw things up."

I scream at him, "IF THEY HACKED OUR DATABASE WE ARE FUCKED ALREADY! SO THAT DOESN'T MAKE ANY FUCKING SENSE."

He really was just grabbing for straws all over the fucking place, it was very irritating.

So then I start explaining the reason for putting the IDs up there and he develops a smirk in the side of his face that said to me or I read as "you are full of shit", so I yelled at him again "WHEN SOMEONE IS EXPLAINING SOMETHING TO YOU AND YOU START TO SMILE LIKE THAT, IT MAKES THEM WANT TO PUNCH YOU IN THE FACE!"

So he cowers away, "No one is punching anybody..."

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The convo aside, he is wrong for the following reasons:

UserID - this is a primary key in our users table (what a fucking surprise huh) and you cannot use it for shit, not one has access to it anywhere in the program, so it is just a number as far as anyone is concerned. We use other Primary keys all over the application that the users use.

SessionID - you can hack or hijack ANYONE'S session using poisoned cookies or if the session is cookieless just getting the URL that the user is using because the SessionID shows up in the URL. So my point was if the SessionID would show up in the url, what the fuck difference would it make if I put it on the page for debugging.

I never said I would put that information on the page permanently, only until we figured out our problem. I even asked my two co-workers for validation and they agreed with me.

I hate it when people make stupid ass baseless arguments.

Fucking idiot! Take your 10 years of experience and shove it. I have 9 years of experience and what?

Junk Mail Wars

Some tips on how to get the hell off of junk mail lists. I have been bombarded with really annoying mailings from my bank, credit cards and other places. I finally put a stop to it all by calling each individual credit card and bank and telling them to take me off their mailing list for offers. I no longer want ANYTHING from them. I get offers about twice a week for the same stupid thing over and over again.

I stumbled across this on the USPS website in the FAQ section:
https://www.dmachoice.org/

Turns out it is a subscription center for your physical mail, friggen awesome.

Anyhow, just thought this would be handy for people to see.

Unproductive

So the building my company rents from has been doing a lot of renovation, they recently started ripping up the ground and the street. In the middle of ripping up the ground and the street they busted a water main... this is bad for two reasons, the water was shut off and the A/C wasn't cooling because it is water cooled.

So naturally, it gets really hot in doors, my thermometer read about 85 to 90 degrees F and people stop working and start complaining. If you needed to take care of your bathroom business you had to walk to another building to take care of that. There was no water for washing hands, toilets and no water for drinking. Bad times.

The things I want to point out are:

1. It is illegal to keep employees in that kind of work environment by OSHA standards

2. It is a fire hazard to keep people inside a building that cannot use its sprinkler system to put out a fire

That being said, why is it that managers don't ever issue the command to work from home immediately when these things happen. Then if you ask, you are told to just deal with it. Then if you leave anyhow you are chastised and possibly punished. Why does it have to be like that? What the fuck is wrong with people.

We weren't allowed to leave until we were told to evacuate the building because it was a fire hazard. Congrats on dropping the ball Company managers.

The best part is, you think it was just one shitty day. Next day we come in and it turns out they busted the water main AGAIN but in a different segment of pipe like 300 ft down from the first break. Same shit all over again, same idiot manager not letting us go until fucking 14:30.

I hate stupid people.

Face Book and other Social Media Products

Social media products such as face book are more of a hindrance than a help. I hate how this has become a new form of communication amongst people, I am afraid that it will be expected of people to use social media sites against their will, suck as LinkedIn and other sites. If you do not have a LinkedIn account, I feel that you are scrutinized by employers currently and I think that is wrong. I prefer to be invisible amongst people so they never know what I am up to, doing, etc... I want everyone to be clueless.

I also don't want people to know my official opinions on anything which is why I chose to open this anonymous blog. I blog with my handle 'blagger' because I have to protect myself against the world. However I can cowardly exercise my freedom of speech safely.

I closed my Facebook account today, because I can't risk someone saying something offensive or stupid on my facebook account and me having to pay for it. "How would they see it if you don't invite them to see it?" There are very few degrees of separation between coworkers and friends. I am not going to risk someone seeing anything through someone Else's account. You don't have to friend someone for your information or pictures to be shared.

Fuck social media. It has the potential to be a career killer, so count me out. That is why I closed my live journal account too like 2 years ago. Bad thing to leave open.

I want to be as anonymous as possible online except for the professional sense. I want people to see me in the light that I shine, not the light that I actually emit. Getting by in the world takes a lot of discipline and training and fuck if I want important people to know what I am actually thinking.

The good part about all this is, one day, I will be rich enough that it won't matter.