Blather

This post is not about anything in particular it is just blather. I have been having a lot of trouble breathing lately and aside from the obviously troubling aspect of it, I am just fed up with my bullshit allergies. I don't even understand what I am allergic to anymore. It feels like there is dust just about everywhere, which I guess makes sense, but holy hell I can't seem to get a single moment of peace sometimes without my nose running, itching, being dry, then bleeding, then being closed so tight I can't breath and then in other instances I feel like I have a giant grain of sand or a rock under my eye lids. I thought that I had something stuck in my eye, it apparently was my eyelid just being swollen all together, inflamed, itchy and it burned and hurt to the touch.

Bottom line, I need to do something about it, it is becoming unlivable. There are times where even popping a claritin does nothing. Then there are the lovely sinus infections I get which go on for weeks. I don't have a cold, I just have a fucking sinus infection which tends to cause a cold. I need some fucking reliefe.

My other symptom which happens every so often is my numbness or my lack of feelings and desire. I will go into these unexpected bouts of feeling nothing for an undetermined amount of time. I don't feel happy, sad, I can't get horny, I am not depressed, I just feel nothing. It is worrisome because it gives me poor judgement on what I should/shouldn't say to people. It is when I am my most blunt.