Status Truth

I hate it when someone asks you, usually a friend, "How's it going?" and you know depending on whether you say good or bad will determine how much they want to annoy you about stupid shit.

For example, I have a huge habit of complaining because I don't like having unresolved problems. I also don't like keeping it to myself because it puts me in a bad mood, so I vent and I vent frequently. I don't mind venting to my friends in person, but it is more difficuilt to do over IM.

There is no tone in IM which is really goddamn annoying to say the least. It can cause problems while speaking to someone because you won't know how they meant something when talking unless they specifically mention the tone.

For example the word argument. This word can mean angry or it can mean someone's side of a story.

Anyhow, I have one friend in particular who I try not to complain to over IM because he always seems to trivialize what I am complaining or concerned about. It really bothers me that he has such a laze fair attitude about life and it is because he has a fall back. He doesn't have to worry about failure because he has a fall back and he wants to apply that same, "don't worry about it attitude" to everyone else. It is quite annoying.

So I avoid it.

Other people I try not to complain to because I am worried that they will get tired of hearing me complain. I can't help but be honest, I have a hard time saying that everything is okay when it isn't.

Right now everything is not okay. I am very worried about my health and I am worried about financing all of these wedding related things. I am going to a nice place for my other sisters wedding and so my wife and I decided to make the destination our honeymoon get away. The problem is this is going to cost a boat load of money I certainly did not plan on. I am not too happy about taking the money from my car sale and dumping it into this wedding. The honeymoon is going to cost about 5,000 dollars no matter how you spin it. Probably a little more because of unexpected costs and my favorite new thing to hate: Foreign Transaction Fees due to currency conversions.

Basically I need all of this stuff to end soon so I can get back to what is important, which is paying down my debt so I can live debt free. The other equally as important thing is to move out of the home I am in right now and buy my own place.