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My sister keeps contacting me repeatedly and I keep ignoring her. I hate my sister, I always have. She is just a miserable piece of shit and I am fairly certain that she is mentally ill. She lives in her own little world and refuses to come out of it. Anything that doesn't fit into her world she refuses or outright ignores. She has many pink elephants following her around and she ignores them all while they are cramped into any room she occupies.

I am the one puzzle piece in her life that doesn't fit into her weird and screwed up world so she is constantly trying to change me and I refuse and resist her constantly. Her most recent fuck up was at my wedding. She showed up even though she shouldn't have and think this was most apparent when she decided to sit like a pile of shit in the corner and sulk for the entire wedding. Then on her exit she ignored both me and my wife. She refused to be in the pictures and was just a general drag. She now pretends that none of that happened. More than that happened too, but I don't feel like bothering with how stupid it is.

Long story short I am ignoring her.

The Penguins with Guns

I hate motorcycle cops. I got another speeding ticket. Stupid fucking penguin cop hiding in the bushes got me and I had the fucking chance to make a U Turn to make a break for it, but who knows how much worse that would have made things. I hate these fucking smug assholes cops with a hard on to fuck everyone over.

I broke the law speeding and I accept that, but goddamn it - it's a stupid law to begin with. First off everyone was speeding already. They just chose me as the victim to be fucked over. I was passing a slow poke and they got me those pieces of shit. Those less than useful so called civil servants.

I already got my lawyer to handle this ticket again... this is the third fucking ticket I got in a 3 year span. Hate this shit. Speeding tickets are just revenue for the pigs to feed on, they can go to hell. I need to get a radar detector so I can save myself the money and trouble. I wish i could yell at the cops and give them a piece of my mind, but my first amendment right can be trampled on by the fucking pig asswipes. Go ahead and google what happens if you tell a cop to go fuck himself. They can arrest you for no reason because they can  claim disorderly conduct. So even though they are wrong they can make your life miserable by taking time out of your day and maybe even physically abusing you.

Fuck cops they are just failed graduates and rejects who only care about intimidation it feels like. Granted there are those who are nice and have a good moral compass but far and few on between. Lots of douche bags.

Sticking it to the man

So I am both very happy and very sad that I will be leaving my current job one more fucking time to move on to bigger and better things. I am happy because I wont have to deal with the douchbaggery of my current boss any longer. My drive to work will be five minutes and I wont dread going to work any longer.

I am sad because I am partially betraying my friend regarding employment. He gave me this job and now I am moving on for my own selfish interests. I am looking out for me. I will offer him an employment opportunity but it is up to him whether or not he gets it. I can only try to make amends.

Closing Lag and other Calamity

I love how I bent over backwards to get all of my fucking documentation in on time and in order so that I could meet my closing date, this mystical creature from the beyond, but I was then slapped in the face by my title company who for some fucking reason is behind the curve on my case/deal. Fucking annoying.

So now everything is chaotic and the people working to get this deal squared away are all pulling their fucking hair out. Meanwhile I have learned to stop giving a shit because I need to fucking move. I can't turn back.

Making things even cozier I got my goddamn offer letter finally so I can finally quit from this job.

Chaos.

Moving Target

So my fucking closing date has been shifted. It was supposed to be this Friday, but nope title company fucked that up because they are waiting on a goddamn bank. Probably the fuckers who are going to buy my goddamn loan. Fuck this shit.

I am so pissed off right now about the whole situation I could literally just scream out loud in frustration. I don't understand how there could be any fucking delay at this point totally fucking ridiculous. The lady I spoke to from the title company gives me a line of shit about why they are late and she implies it is my fault. That pissed me off even more. The shit they were complaining about is a month old so they don't have any room to complain or blame anyone except themselves.

I hate this shit. My Realtor isn't worried, but I am shitting my pants. We are moving regardless because this is a load of bullshit that we are waiting on these fucking people to do their goddamn job. I will be so relieved when all this is over. I will be happy to never have to deal with this bullshit again at least for 5 years or more. Why can't this shit just run smoothly why does it always have to be a fucking mess? To make matters worse I have to resign from my job soon and this is stalling that process.

Blather

I am really goddamn tired right now from this whole house experience. It is supposedly over this week. I fucking hope so because I am about get ass raped financially yet again. Fucking incredible. I have started over before, this won't be the first time. Now depending on the situation I might pay off the so called personal loan or 2nd mortgage from my own pocket.

I won't be happy about that, but fuck it I am investing my fucking money into this house so I can get on with my life. I am so goddamn tired of not being able to settle and be grounded.

I also have stopped collecting opinions from everyone regarding my situation because at the end of the day it is no one's business except my own. I have gone against the grain before and come out on top repeatedly. So fuck everyone else right now. This is about me and what I want. I will figure out how to pay off that other 15K. It may happen through a refinancing or maybe I just pay it off entirely.

Next order of business, pay down my fucking student loans once and for all.

I will do my fed loans first, then attack the private loans. Then accumulate as much funds as possible.

I am going to pull out the stops on this one and call bullshit on everyone else who thinks they know better right now. They don't know the situation and they don't know what's going on in my life right now. So fuck it all.

Packing

Omg packing. We have packed and packed and packed so much shit already. There is just and endless supply of junk in our house. It is maddening. We are lucky because we have free tape and boxes. That is one expense we don't have to worry about which is great.

My closing costs are going to be about 11K, I hope they are less. After paying that I owe these ass hat sellers another 15K. These people have been the most inconsiderate bunch I have ever dealt with. It is annoying.

More later...

Creeping Around

When changing jobs, the part I hate most is the creeping around part. I hate having to tip toe around the office and pretend I am going to be here in a few weeks. It is hard to handle. It is more emotionally difficult to do than anything else because if you have people you don't want to leave behind, the hardest part is keeping your mouth shut and not letting them in on your secret.

It is a big secret and should remain that way until you get your offer letter. Once you get your offer letter, then you can proceed with your resignation letter. That part sucks even if you hate your boss. It sucks because you can never tell them the truth. It is all lies all the time. You need to calmly tell your boss some line of bullshit about why you are leaving. They may counter you, but if you are truly unhappy at your do not accept that offer.

Only after you accept your new position and you resign from your old position should you ever reveal to your coworkers or mouthy friends that you are making that change. Fuck everyone else you need to protect yourself.

It is about getting the best deal for yourself. I was a lot happier with the system at my old job. I want to wake up and want to go to work.

Tips on your Job

I have been told by various people that the salary I have been looking for is too high or that I am dreaming if I want to find a place where my boss isn't a complete nightmare. To all those people I say fuck you. No, the grass isn't always greener on the other side, but what I have learned from all of my experience so far is that if you want to get the workable job then you have to try to make as much change yourself as possible.

I switched jobs and every time I did I got a raise. I am making exactly what I want now. I left my old job because I hated my boss, I changed that part of my life. Then unfortunately I moved to a job where my new boss is also a giant douche. I am changing jobs again so I can change my boss again. I just happen to be lucky that my old boss was fired and my old company wants me back.

My point is if you hate your boss or your job you can change it. Don't tell yourself that it is like that everywhere and don't tell yourself you don't deserve a certain pay when you do. Fuck everyone else and shoot for what you want.

Packing

Packing sucks. I get home from work and I pack. I wish it was a more desirable activity to perform. What I especially hate about packing is when you have a bunch of small stuff you don't know where to pack. What is also pretty stupid is packing everything up just to unpack it all over again in the span of two weeks.

Sigh... it will all be over soon.

Post

Freaking out a little because it is time to move on again. Moving living spaces and moving jobs one more time and hopefully the final time. I just want it all to be over already.

I have to pool my funds together, pack everything up, go to closing and then finally move. Then I have to quit which is going to be a chore within itself.

When all that is done. I need to clear a month, accumulate funds and then pay off the 15K fuck you fee. Then I will work on my student loans. Holy hell it is almost over...

Transition

I hope this is my final transition for at least 5 years. Moving around this much makes my fucking head spin. I am tired of going from job to job each year. Not my fault I am a hot commodity. In all these years of moving jobs I not once have asked to move to a job. Everyone has come to me to get me to come to them. This is the best possible situation for me each time, I am just going where the money is.

The benefits at this job are horrifically bad. The healthcare sucks, the 401K is a goddamn joke the vacation policy is stingy. I am going back because of the type of work and the people that are there. This place is going somewhere, I can see myself getting into a better position in the future.

It has been interesting journey thus far. I have worked hard to get here. I just need my life to settle already so I can start working on me.

Excited to get Scrood

I am excited to get screwed on this house deal all of a sudden. I can't wait for closing. I just need everything to fall into place so that I can move on with my life already.

Next steps:
Resign from this job
Start new job
Rebuild funds
Pay fuck you fee immediately
Rebuild funds
Pay federal loans completely off
Rebuild funds
Pay private loan completely
Rebuild funds
Get Retirement Under Control
Rebuild funds indefinitely
Kids?
If yes, lose everything again...

Crap on a Stick

The house deal I have entered is a crap on a stick deal. I am being force fed shit with this deal because the sellers are stingy greedy fucks. I am going along with said shit deal because I need a house. I don't WANT a house I fucking need one. I am being forced to pay the difference between the appraisal value and what the fucking sellers want which is a 15K fucking difference. Which holy shit is a lot. Everyone involved in the deal keeps calling it a loan, it is not a loan it is a fuck you fee. I am not being lent shit to close on the house I am being penalized for their home's lack of performance on the market and they are being sore losers.

So be it. I don't have a choice, I need the house and I don't want to do this ever again if possible. This shit sucks.

Broke and Angry

I am currently in the middle of a house purchase. The sellers are very stubborn and boorish. They have a fictional house value in their minds and they can't get it. I got them an appraisal and it came in super low. I got a second appraisal and it came in at just above what they got originally. I then signed an addendum stating that they would lower the price and that the contract is not contingent on appraisal. Only it still is because the language on the contract is crap.

Next they asked that I pay the difference between their asking price and the appraisal. I hate this idea passionately.

I got a new job offer and I can't move to it until this whole mess is finished with.

I am seeing this through to the end though.

I don't know whether I should stay or I should go.

Oh Well

I feel very guilty and bad about this whole deal. My friend made me promise that I wouldn't quit on him after a year. I said yes which was a lie because I cannot see the unforeseeable future. So shame on me but fuck this too. This place sucks and my current boss sucks. I don't like where I work because I am separated from everyone else and they take the liberty of assuming that I slack off and show up late all of the time.

My boss is a giant prick asshole most of the time. He tries to make up for it but throwing money at my coworker and I, and it works for a while to calm us down, but I am quite unhappy and my coworker is fucking miserable he just doesn't see it. He works too much, his schedule is terrible, under appreciated and he catches shit from our boss all of the time.

My boss is the biggest asshole I have ever had as a boss. He has literally told me he will not give me any documentation regarding what he wants in a project. He told my coworker and me on more than one occasion that we need to read his mind. Literally! Who does that?

His emails are unreadable and unintelligible. He starts his emails in the subject line and ends them in the body. They are short and aren't written well usually just filling me with confusion. He doesn't read my emails and won't respond to anything important then has the audacity to tell me I never sent him an email.

House Insanity

The sellers have finally pulled their heads out of their asses. They have finally committed themselves almost kind of. We are drafting up a plan for a personal loan from them. I am not crazy about any of that, but at this point I need to move forward it has become imperative. I need a place to settle so I don't lose my fucking mind.

The next strange and weird bit of news is I am going back to my old job for the third time. Life is strange. I am getting 80K to return. In one year I have increased my salary dramatically. I went from 52K to 70K to 75K to 80K, those are some nice jumps. I feel bad for my friend, I don't want to leave him but i need to do what is good for me.

I am going to try to convince him to move over.

Greedy People

More house drama... got the appraisal back for 165 and now I am waiting on the Sellers to make a goddamn decision since they are so indecisive and stingy. My lender wants to close in two weeks, which is awesome cause I want to close in two weeks. I need to start packing as soon as I get a fucking closing date. This whole thing is a goddamn nightmare. I really hope this all works out.