Blather

I am really goddamn tired right now from this whole house experience. It is supposedly over this week. I fucking hope so because I am about get ass raped financially yet again. Fucking incredible. I have started over before, this won't be the first time. Now depending on the situation I might pay off the so called personal loan or 2nd mortgage from my own pocket.

I won't be happy about that, but fuck it I am investing my fucking money into this house so I can get on with my life. I am so goddamn tired of not being able to settle and be grounded.

I also have stopped collecting opinions from everyone regarding my situation because at the end of the day it is no one's business except my own. I have gone against the grain before and come out on top repeatedly. So fuck everyone else right now. This is about me and what I want. I will figure out how to pay off that other 15K. It may happen through a refinancing or maybe I just pay it off entirely.

Next order of business, pay down my fucking student loans once and for all.

I will do my fed loans first, then attack the private loans. Then accumulate as much funds as possible.

I am going to pull out the stops on this one and call bullshit on everyone else who thinks they know better right now. They don't know the situation and they don't know what's going on in my life right now. So fuck it all.