My Return

So since I am not pissed off anymore about as many things as I usually am, I am finding things to piss me off so I can write about them. One of my favorite things to do really, not sure if anyone has noticed.
So I was watching Nip/Tuck since it is now my new favourite show to watch (I know this is an old show, but I never saw it and it is on netflix...) and there is an episode where the teenage character named Matt, son of Shawn, hits someone with his friends car while high on weed (naturally). It was a hit and run but it wasn't on purpose, go watch the show for more details...
Anyhow the girl they hit got pretty fucked up, she was taken to the hospital, they did surgery, but the girl's mother and their religion prevents them from allowing her plastic surgery to fix her fucked up face. So my hatred beam is focused on Christian Scientists. As you have already probably guessed, this sect of Christianity has jack shit to do with science and everything to do with retardation. Apparently Christian Scientists believe that the body should heal itself, so the busted girl from the show was not on pain meds, yummmmyyyy...
The girls mother wouldn't allow plastic surgery because she believed that "prayer" would heal her. Hell I've been doing it all wrong all my life, I should just pray for what I want - oh wait that's right! That doesn't work... I think that everyone is entitled to their own beliefs, however some beliefs are just plain stupid. This is not only stupid, but dangerous. The poor girl was going to lose her sight due to the swelling in her face so Matt's father, Shawn, took medical custody of the girl and performed probono surgery on her. Now that is something.
I know this was just a story, but I also know that this shit really happens. I saw it on the discovery channel where some tribe in Indonesia or some shit wouldn't allow their daughter to get life saving surgery because their religious belief didn't allow for it. I call bullshit on this kind of thinking. I hate doctors and hospitals, but if there is a proven method of curing someone of an ailment, then it is inhumane to not let them have it.
So my gripe today is, fuck religions who make their children suffer due to moronic religious beliefs. I will place this in the same category as female circumcision or getting your vagina sewed up before marrying a man to protect your virginity? Or how about those fucked up Mormon tribes that live in compounds who marry and rape 14 year old girls? Its all retarded. This is a black and white argument, I want to see someone defend this and make it sound morally correct. The key point is that a lot of these victims don't have a say in it and that is why it is wrong. If these girls had a choice and willingly did these things then that would be different, but that is seldom the case.

Breath

What a fucking difference it makes to not be in a stupid work environment anymore. This work environment I am currently in will have its share of problems I am sure, but still feels good to be out of it untill I run into it again. I feel very different now, refreshed almost. The technology I am working with isn't the best, but it has the potential to change for the better. The best part is I can influence that change.

I haven't been bitching as often about much of anything lately because I haven't felt the need to. Right now I am focused on making big changes in my life since I have my money problem about 95% squared away. I am not making the exact amount I want, but the money is still good. The money is incredible in comparison to the shit I was making at my old job. I really hope that the old operation caves in under the pressure of not having me around. It sounds like it is, but I want to hear about it so I can get the satisfaction out of knowing that my old boss is a failure. That man needs to hurt so he can learn his lesson.

I am looking into getting my retirement options together, I currently don't have a 401K at this job, but I want to put together some safe investments that I can maintain outside of any company I work for so I can take it with me. Just like I did with my life insurance and I am very happy I did that. Brilliant move on my part.

To Do

So the extra money I am making is going a long way for me and has now enabled me to do things I couldn't even think about doing before. I am going to be having my actual wedding ceremony now to celebrate what we did already, which almost felt unofficial. It is going to be a non religious wedding, no stupid over extended customs or bullshit. It will be quick and dirty, to the point, let's have our wedding ceremony vows and I do's then move on to the fun part.

I need to switch out my car and I think I will be doing that soon enough. The plan is if I get a new car I will sell the old one and use the money to pay off a huge chunk of my student loans. I will then barrow money from my mother to pay off the remainder and in turn I will pay her 2% interest. The point is to not owe an agency anymore, so I will be off the books officially which is nice. I will still have one loan (technically two - sub and unsub) loans remaining, but I am not worried since it is federal, the interest rate shouldn't sky rocket or anything.

I then want to buy a new power PC, finally, just get it done. I have been needing a new PC for years now. I want something updated and powerful so I can play games and enjoy the shit out of older titles that I have.

Since my company does not offer a 401K I need to figure out how I am going to put money away for my retirement. I am thinking about a pension plan for myself through MetLife, but I need to do my research first to see if it even makes sense. It will be one more disconnected service I pay myself. I already pay my own Life Insurance so it is mobile.

Blather

This post is not about anything in particular it is just blather. I have been having a lot of trouble breathing lately and aside from the obviously troubling aspect of it, I am just fed up with my bullshit allergies. I don't even understand what I am allergic to anymore. It feels like there is dust just about everywhere, which I guess makes sense, but holy hell I can't seem to get a single moment of peace sometimes without my nose running, itching, being dry, then bleeding, then being closed so tight I can't breath and then in other instances I feel like I have a giant grain of sand or a rock under my eye lids. I thought that I had something stuck in my eye, it apparently was my eyelid just being swollen all together, inflamed, itchy and it burned and hurt to the touch.

Bottom line, I need to do something about it, it is becoming unlivable. There are times where even popping a claritin does nothing. Then there are the lovely sinus infections I get which go on for weeks. I don't have a cold, I just have a fucking sinus infection which tends to cause a cold. I need some fucking reliefe.

My other symptom which happens every so often is my numbness or my lack of feelings and desire. I will go into these unexpected bouts of feeling nothing for an undetermined amount of time. I don't feel happy, sad, I can't get horny, I am not depressed, I just feel nothing. It is worrisome because it gives me poor judgement on what I should/shouldn't say to people. It is when I am my most blunt.

Misguided Focus

Our do nothing federal government is threatening something that everyone wants yet again. It is perpetuated by big business so right away this is a Republican driven issue. When will these assholes realize that the internet is more democratic and liberal than they realize it is like the rest of the world.

Sign this petition to see if it will make a difference:

https://www.google.com/landing/takeaction/

I suspect we will be fine. If not there will be hell to pay.

This is another great example of TOLERATED SPEECH, if a company feels threatened by a smaller company then they want it shut down. They are hiding behind the idea of pirating stuff, but that isn't really the reason. If it was, then they would be more focused on just piracy, but they aren't. They want to shut down entire sites due to one person's bad judgement. In my opinion, you pirate when you need something and you stop when you can afford it. I haven't pirated a goddamn thing since I got my first job our of college and I am sticking to it.

Surprize

I had a good fucking day for once. Which is why I am writing about it. I don't have much to say about it except that it was fun and I enjoyed myself thoroughly. I got my first pay check from my new job and it gave me the expected warm fuzzy feeling I have been wanting for so long. Like I planned and like I promised, I will move forward with my plans and I will make more fucking money until I reach that 100K mark. When I make oodles of disgusting and wonderful money I will have very little to complain about ever again. At that point if I didn't like something I would fucking do something about it.

I still want to go into business for myself, I am currently in the works of making that happen. I am organizing myself, getting all of my ideas digitized and worked out. I will have documentation talking about the technical aspects and what will go into it. I will find similar products and search for any existing patents. This is just for my physical product ideas. I have several winning ideas and I swear if I ever make the product and it goes into production I will reveal my identity because at that point fuck everyone. I wouldn't have much to be afraid of at that point, but I might change my mind later.

Fun.

Nothing would make me happier than to not have to worry about my bills anymore. I will still be a down to earth modest person, but I will have a way to mobilize my ideas through money and power. I won't run for office or anything, but I will try to make an impact locally. I can finally see a path opening up, the best part is that I still have happy contacts at my old company, just waiting for the department to implode so I can possibly return.

Paula Dean

I don't think she is a bad lady, but I will say no one else is going to:

FUCK PAULA DEAN

Fuck Paula Dean in the ass. Not because I hate her, but because I think she is fucking STUPID. I called this years ago, I am shocked the dumb heifer hasn't died from a stroke yet. Look at the stupid shit she cooks, its not healthy! So WHY?! Why!!!! Why is it a SHOCK that she has type 2 diabetes? Type 2 diabetes is something you give yourself by eating shitty, it is something you earn from being unhealthy. This dumb bitch bought it alright. Keep doing that deep south cooking, shoveling butter and lard into your fucking fat white face. Stupid pig. I say fuck her, because this was preventable, I don't feel sorry for the dumb broad. She is going to be faced with a hard decision now, she is going to have to stop cooking like a disgusting hill-billy and turn that shit around in order to keep any of her supporters.

So again, I don't hate her, but fuck her. I don't feel sorry for rich people who get sick, especially rich people who self induced that sickness.

Material Things

I had numerous disagreements with religious people and pretty much all of them would use the "You shouldn't be latched on to the material things in this world..." argument. Here is my well thought out rebuttle to this stupid and flawed idea:

The whole argument of being invested in material things is first and foremost a big flaming contradiction. Religious people say we should not be invested in our material things and we should worry more about the afterlife, everything material means nothing blah blah blah... basically anything that fits the theme of not loving material things.

These people are wrong because they require material things in order to be religious effectively. For Christians they require, clothing, jesus juice, stale christ, paper for their bibles, wood for their crosses, gold for their religious jewlery and Mercedes for their religious leaders. The same can be said for Jews, they have a corner on the white shirts and black suits market, they need their four cornered garments with tassels, prayer shauls made of wool, leather for their phylactery (tefilin), parchment for their torah, wood for their ark for their torah, wine, bread, grape juice, head covers and wigs for their married women, beannies for their bald spots etc...

The list goes on, the fucking point is how can these idiots argue that you shouldn't be invested in material things when they themselves use it for worship? Hence it is a big red flag in the contadiction department.

It always comes back to the same thing, do what you want to be comfortable during your short stay on earth. I think Louie C.K. said it best when he said something to the effect of "There are a lot more dead people than there are live people and they have been dead a lot longer than any person who is alive." So if believing in an invisible father figure gets you through the short 50 to 110 years you might live, then great cause you are going to die anyhow.

Death is absolute and guaranteed so... Enjoy!

As Planned

So my old job let go of the obsolete worker that I thought they would let go of and the lead developer is on his way out. He has an interview setup, so he is pretty much gone. He doesn't care anymore and I don't blame him. That department is crumbling from the inside like I predicted and it is giving me much joy. I hate my ex boss a lot, he is a fucking retard and should be fired immediately, he did too much damage as is and obviously has no clue when he is in over his head.

Once again, I was right. I predicted all of this 3 years ago when this idiot was granted the position out of pity to begin with. Fucking numb nut moron.

Negativity

I have been thinking about what it means to be negative exactly. In reality this term is used as a label for people who tell the truth. The truth that apparently optimists don't want to listen to. If you tell someone what will happen if they do "A" and they take offense to it, they will usually retort with: "You are so negative" or "You are being negative". Even if you have had previous experience with it; they don't like what they are hearing and they dismiss your cold hard experience and facts. Instead of listening to what you have to say, they just take personal offense to the idea of criticism or being wrong and deflect their short comings back on the messenger.

This is basically a form of projection. Using the same goddamn logic I can go ahead and start telling people "You are being too optimistic" or "You are being optimistic" and see how the other party likes it. I got really pissed off when someone told me I was being too negative and I countered with "I am being realistic" and they countered back with "That is what a negative person would say". Oh I see, so being realistic has no place in the Optimists world. The optimist is much like a stupid religious zealot who believes in unfounded and unsupported faith to get them through their ordeals. Therefore Optimists are being unrealistic. You can't prove what an optimist believes in when they don't want to look at facts.

Yet another conundrum of our society...

If people could just be honest with themselves and others there wouldn't be so many problems. Liars and dishonest people are the root of society's problems. I am not negative, I focus on the truth and facts. I want to be realistic at all serious times. I don't want to be realistic when I am having fun though, there is no place for it.

Stupid optimistic people suck.

Ugh

I am really trying to keep an open mind here at this new place, but so far I see that it is going to be difficuilt to get used to the boyish attitudes these people have. I don't know them well enough but the concept of first impressions is a two way street. Right now the impression that I have of my superiors is that they are all over privlidged rich boys who think they can do whatever they want.

So these rich boys have poker night, they have this after 17:00 around 18:00 or so on a Wednesday night. They invite some of their over priviledged friends over who don't even work here mind you and they make a fucking mess. They leave beer bottles, paper cups, glasses, plates and mugs everywhere. They are treating my workspace as their after hours playground and I don't appreciate it. My first impression is they are a bunch of lazy frat boy bitches who think they are better than everyone else. Most of all I find them unprofessional.

I really hope this turns around at one point and I begin to like them again. My boss has a stick up his ass, kind of hard to work with someone like that.

Project Management

Having a project manager is very important in my opinion, or at least having some kind of management period is useful and important. What is interesting and sad is PM is very important to have and understand, but explaining that to someone in school is very meaningless. There is no point in trying to convince someone that PM is important because I strongly believe that people, smart people, will come to that conclusion on their own.

I never used to understand the importance of PM before, how it can not only organize your work projects, but you personal work and life projects as well. I used to get all bent out of shape when I would write down a list of things for myself to do and I wouldn't get all of them done fast enough. I didn't set expectations and I didn't attach a time metric to any of my tasks, I would just assume it wouldn't take long... eventually not taking long translated into 2-3 hours which I am sure was too long.

My other realization is, if an office is not using PM then they don't know how to gauge anything. Same with me, I have about 3 projects that I want to do simultaneously. They never get started and it is all due to the fact that my weekends are not accounted for. I don't block off time correctly for the weekends. The week days are mostly shot because I am tired and now with my longer commute, it seems even more dim that I will get anything done during the week. Therefore, I decided to just use PM to organize everything. I will setup tasks, phases and other things with the amount of time it should take and I might even track theoretical cost.

This should be a fun experiment.

Art and the Artist

So I went to the UM Hosted Beaux Arts Festival and for the first time in my whole life I purchased a piece of art for about 350 dollars. I love art, but I could never afford to buy any above the price of 20 or 40 dollars before. So I didn't just buy it on a whim, but I bought it because I loved it. It is a black and white drawing/painting on rice paper by a Chinese Artist from Virginia. Not a small piece, but not super large piece either. I love the piece and I am glad I bought it, but I already absorbed a good portion of my monthly spending budget on a sheet of rice paper that looks pretty in my bedroom. I am just glad I could buy it period. I now have the capability, it feels good.

VBScript, VB.Net, VB*

I find it hard to respect this language, I try to find the good in it, but for the most part I just can't see past its total lack of decent structure. It uses a lot of friendly naming conventions and I disapprove. The number one thing that people constantly say about VB is "its easier to read" which honestly isn't a good selling point for me when it comes to programming. Programming isn't about easy reading it is about logic. VB may be easier to read, but you sure have to type a hell of a lot more in order to get anything done.

I totally understand that VB.Net compiles down into the same CLR as C#, but that is not what I am arguing about. I am arguing that the language itself is too handicapped, its like programming with training wheels. What I mean by that is instead of forcing the developer to think like a computer, they think like a person who is writing english. That is a huge disparity and more than likely means that the VB.Net developer isn't as sharp as the C/C++/C# or even Java developer. Why? Because the VB.Net, python, ruby developer, doesn't like writing code on one line, can't read condensed code well enough even though it is more efficient, doesn't want to terminate statements and most of all wants to be able to read code like it is english...

This shows me laziness and the more and more developers who don't understand curly brace languages because they would rather write in a handy capped language, the poorer the code will be. They won't be able to handle complicated concepts because everything is written so friendly instead of with their real names. It comes down to discipline and just making it easier for people doesn't teach them anything, nor will they learn what they are supposed to either. The best example I can give of how bad this is - is like when children use calculators to do basic math that they are supposed to learn using mental math only. The calculator is the handicap and the child suffers because they can't multiply something like 876 x 23 by hand. They are dependent on that calculator just like VB.Net programmers are dependent on friendly english reading syntax. Its just bad and frankly makes the programmer seem a bit childish for not being able to use a big boy C like language.

The same goes for people who are too goddamn lazy to declare types, they like to just rely on the compiler to figure it out. Fucking ridiculous. I swear if I was a programming professor I would make very strict rules about what you should and shouldn't do in programming. Some people use the beliefe that "there is no such thing as good programming, just varying degrees of bad" and I whole heartedly disagree, I actually think that it is pretty goddamn black and white, there are no shades of gray to lean on. I think either you do things wrong or right when coding. The only gradient is varying degrees of bad programmer or idiot.

I don't like laziness or people doing things half assed, I'd rather they just don't do it at all. Especially shitty co workers or employees.

First Day

My first day on the new job, the drive was meh, took longer than my normal drive, but I suspect that is because I never drove down that way before and the area is rather secluded in terms of buildings and people. You only really go down that route if you live there, are rich or work there.

I got sick two days before the first day of being on the job, which for a lack of better words fucking sucks. So I have been making the best of it by enjoying the fact that I don't have to deal with my tard of an ex-boss anymore. The people here at this new place are very nice and generally it seems like everyone stays off each others' asses.

Another downside to working here is I am not allowed to use any IM Clients (officially). So that is a problem for me, I use IM a lot, so I need to find a way around that. The other thing that sucks is I have to disclose all stocks that I own because the SEC needs to know. So this is a way more secure orginization, this is how it should be, so good.

I think I am going to fit in just fine here from what I can tell so far. I just need to prove myself these next few months and not waste anyone's time. Especially my own time that is. I know I will feel fantastic once I get my first pay check which is next Friday (I think?).

Weeds on Netflix

So apparently the Weeds series is NOT over, I was mistaken, although that last episode for season 5 could seriously have been the last episode for the whole series in my opinion. I can't wait for Netflix to get the other seasons, I need my Weeds fix nao! So I will be purchasing them from where ever, chances are Amazon since Amazon has everything. So I apologize about my previous post, it was wrong :-D

I will check imdb next time to make sure etc etc