I Get It Now

So I get it now, I totally understand it after all these years. Have you ever watched a movie or heard a story of some parent's grown child or children kicking their parent or parents out of their home because it is a goddamn burden on everyone? The sad part being the parent or parents don't see that, or do and don't care. Man I used to think those kids were bad people and that they were just mean.

Yeah, I get it now. I am basically one of those kids, I guess I am a horrible person. My mother can't afford her house and I have tried lowering her bills and changing things for her so life will be easier on her. However she still can't afford her home. My father, when he was alive, is the one that made the most money, shitty 40K salary. My mother always worked, but equally as bad paying, shitty 18 to 20K per year jobs.

So when my father passed away, my mother had to deal with paying for everything. Really fucked. Still is too even when both her children left. My sister and I left, everything got cheaper for her, but not cheap enough. Her monthly budget is negative...

I didn't appreciate having to pay her 3000 a year to help. Fucked me good with my student debt. Some shit that was.

Anyhow, I told her for the good of everyone she should sell the house, buy a condo and pocket the remainder. Her weeping answer is no, "No - I don't want to live in a box. It will depress me." I get it, but again, she is negative every month. How about being positive one of these fucking months? You know some extra spending money? I also wonder how she is going to make rent...