I am in a particularly weird state of mind right now. I am scared, specifically I am scared of work or rather I am scared of my boss. I am afraid he will fire me one day out of the blue and it might be during a time when I can't handle it. I hate that kind of uncertainty it truely bothers me. If I got fired it would be due to the enormity of his ego, not because I did anything wrong.
I just feel like impending doom is looming over my head which doesn't make me feel too good about anything. I am getting this feeling from my boss and my stupid landlord. My landlord I fear getting a phone call for her to tell us to gtfo or she is raising rent again like an asshole. Granted we are paying significantly less than anyone else in our complex, but she is not a good landlord. She won't pay to fix anything, it is as if it is all our problem and I don't care for that.
I wish I could switch jobs right now, I really do. I don't feel comfortable working at my job place anymore. I feel out of place and I feel like a blacksheep. Almost hated or envied by my coworkers, which is stupid because I hardly see them. It isn't fair that I am being poorly reflected upon because my boss has a loud mouth and likes to say mean shit about my colleague and me outloud for everyone else to hear. He is unprofessional in that sense. He is also very unrealisitc.
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