Banter

I am currently very depressed. I am pretty sure it is because of money - I don't know how to stop thinking about it. I have gotten a little better. I keep reminding myself that in the future I should be good to go with paying down my loans and what not - I just need to be patient. I need to stop dwelling on it and it might be over sooner than I think.

Still it is fun to think about winning the lottery or getting a significant bonus or raise. If I could just have about 100K lump sum after taxes I would be pretty good right now.

I would pay off my debts of 13K, 14K and 14K, then I would fix up my house. Currently I need to fix my fascia board, then get gutters installed. Then I need to get concrete poured in my front yard where my patio is. The fucking idiot we bought from fucked up his ingenious installation. He laid engineered wood on top of wooden posts directly on the ground. The amount of rot that is happening is disgusting. I pulled up 1 board to take a look and there were big yellow parasols mushrooms growing underneath.

So that's gotta go.

The good news is that I have been able to focus more on software as of late. I made the decision to stop working on my house when I don't really have the money to do so.

This month has been tough. I really need to sit down and just work out that client software so I can get paid. I want more money, every Penney counts. Need to harass the sellers to pay me what they owe me.