I sometimes think I am slightly autistic. I love looking for patterns, I like numbers and organization. I have trouble with large groups of people sometimes and I am for the most part antisocial. I also fall in and out of depression rapidly. Anything can set off my depression because I dwell on things until they are fixed.
I have a very horrible problem with embarrassment. Where if I get into an embarrassing situation, it is burned into my mind and I don't know how to control it, but it makes me anxious and sometimes depressed. No one else can remember, but I do and I remember every aspect. I refer to these memories as huntings because they haunt me daily. Sometimes the memories go away, sometimes they don't and they linger and I feel as if my brain is attacking itself because I get overwhelmed with anxiety. I think of how people think of me, but I try to remind myself that it partially doesn't matter.
Sometimes my brain hangs and I get fixated on something and will do or say things to other people that make no sense.
I have trouble not double checking or triple checking statements, constants or facts that one person will tell me. People take offense to this info.
Sometimes my brain will start thinking about something and I can't focus or pay attention to other people no matter how hard I try.
I am pretty sure I am dyslexic.
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