I have been having a hard time lately. Having a hard time focusing on work, on working out, on a lot of things... I am tired. Mostly mentally and a little emotionally. I wish I had the money to drop on going to a therapist right now, but I honestly don't. I want to save my money right now, I am very concerned about unexpected costs attached to this wedding. I would like to stop the spending roller coaster right now, but until this year is through there isn't much end in sight.
I am pretty depressed right now because I am going through another bout of depression. I knew it was going to happen, just wasn't sure when. Well it is here and it isn't welcome here, but like an unwanted guest I will have to make due until it leaves.
I would really like to get diagnosed for dysthysmia and dyslexia. Not that they are the same, but I need both diagnosed.
I am in a particularly bad mood too as of late, undoubtedly brought on by my depression. I am just upset with everyone as a whole. Nothing anyone did to me, I am just in a bad mood because I am depressed and I feel shitty. I feel guilty for not going to the gym too, but I am not sure how to handle my not going to the gym right now. I don't want to get fat, but I also don't want to go. It is because I have a lack of will to do so.
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