Social Anxiety

I think I have social anxiety, I don't want to say that I have the disorder, but I am very reluctant to go into big crowds. I hate being stared at upon entering a room, it bothers me...a lot. I cave under potentially embarassing situations, so I hide to avoid them. It is the same reason I can't sit and watch Ben Stiller movies or The Office because they aren't funny to me, they just make me immensely uncomfortable. Unless I know I can safely be around well known people, I am very anxious and uncomfortable.

I am at a kid's party right now... I hate small children. I don't like dealing with people asking me constantly "So when will you have kids?" Or "So you're next huh?" Sigh... I don't want kids, I am afraid to have any. I am afraid of their potential cost and honestly them coming out fucked up. Retarded or otherwise, low functioning worthless mostly brain dead leeches. I wouldn't be able to live like that.