Time To Think

I have had enough time to think about the current unsavory work situation and the plan will be executed like so: I will not let my boss's inappropriate behavior get the best of me. I will continue to do the best job I can and if he doesn't like it then too bad, I won't let it get the best of me. I am going to bum through the rest of the year, if things get better or tolerable then I will decide to stay, if not then come January I will be looking for a new job. I already didn't like my job all that much, this has put the last nail in the coffin for me. Now I hate this fucking job.

I hate the idea of quitting another job and moving to a new one so soon, but I refuse to work under toxic conditions. Whether he realizes it or not, he is fucking with the wrong hombre right now - if I had nothing to lose - I would have beat him senseless that day and then stabbed him with my knife which I always carry with me. I would have kept him alive long enough to ask him rhetorical questions as he bled out such as, "Who is worthless now?" Or "Do you still feel invincible?" Watching the life escape from his stupid face would bring me a lot of joy.

People don't understand that the only real reason we don't kill each other consistently every day is that we A. Have a lot to lose, B. Don't want them to do the same to us in any form. It has very little to do with morality and everything to do with selfishness. Selfishness, because a person doesn't want someone else to hurt them, especially for poor reasons. Follow this logic, if someone is attacking you immediately your first thought is, "Please don't hurt me!" "Why shouldn't I hurt you?" "Because I didn't do anything to deserve this." Let's look at the other side of this, let's say someone does hurt you emotionally for very poor reasons and the person they hurt becomes enraged they have two very basic options. Option A: Resist hurting them back and Option B: Hurt them. What forces someone to pick Option A most of the time? They pick Option A generally speaking because they have a family at home they would like to continue to see every day and they don't want to go to jail. People will pick Option B if they were pushed too far or if they don't have a family, or they don't have a family they care to go back to, they have no self worth, or they don't just don't give a shit about anything anymore. Killing people is a lot easier if you don't fear the consequences.

Therefore just like there is no such thing as freedom of speech and only tolerated speech - murdering people is something we as a society don't like, but there is jack shit preventing people from doing it. There is a cost associated with it and that is all. You pay 25+ years of your life to kill someone. If you ain't got shit to lose, then 25+ years is a bargain.

Now the point of me covering all of this logical information is simple: People need to watch what they say to others and they need to stop pretending to be invincible. One day, you just might find the wrong person to fuck with and they might have reached their Witt's end already, you fuck with them and you will reap what you just sowed in the form of the cost of your life. So my ultimate message here I guess is, mutual respect. Do unto others as you would have them do to yourself.

Be very happy I am not in charge of this country of ours. If I was, things would work very well, but there would be a lot of dead people.