I don't like encountering people who want to stay middle of the road for just about any topic. I hate that shit. I used to be like that and it just got to a point where it was IMPOSSIBLE to be middle of the road. Trying to make everyone happy is not a possibility, especially professionally, religiously or politically. Someone is going to get the short end of the stick and you need to know that and embrace it. Trying to be the nice guy in certain side oriented scenarios is just STUPID. Fuck that shit. Everyone has a stance whether they want to admit it or not, even the people who want to play middle of the road have a stance but don't want to fess up because they are afraid of what others might think of their stance.
That is why it pisses me off to meet people who are middle of the road on certain things. You can be ambivalent which is NOT the same as middle of the road. Being ambivalent about a topic is literally not giving a shit which is okay in my opinion. At least you are being honest in saying that you just don't care what happens to your country when you don't pay attention to current events cause you are a fucking retard. That is your right to have. If you don't want to consciously admit that shipping jobs off to India or China is bad for the US economy and stupid because India code is inferior code just because you met a few Indian programmers that were competent, then you are still a juvenile and are in denial of the truth.
If you can't just take a fucking stance, then what the hell do you stand for. Your opinions are meaningless and you will be left out of decision making.
Religion is a great example where a religious group demands that they are right about something. For example let's take the simple argument of the existence of god. Religious (Theists) people believe in the primitive concept of a god and Atheists do not. I haven't seen a smart Atheist go around preaching that god doesn't exist. I can't say the same for Theists. Now how can you be middle of the road on that? You can be Agnostic, but in my opinion I lump Agnostics in with Theists. So that aside, how do you get both sides to get along? Simple answer, YOU DON'T. Someone is wrong here and I decided that it is the Theists. My point is that you cannot be middle of the road about this, it is BLACK AND WHITE.
It amazes me that there are still adults who want to play nice with stupid ass arguments like this.
I am bitching about this because I was speaking to an ex-coworker of mine and at his office they have been outsourcing jobs. He asked me if I was happy with my decision of leaving, I said hell yes I was miserable there and they started to outsource the jobs I wouldn't be able to deal with that shitty India code. To which he has the gall to reply "I knew a lot of smart Indian guys." I'm sorry but does it take much critical thinking to realize that the fucking people I am speaking about are incompetent? This doesn't include all people from India, just the shitty operations who pull in any warm body with half a brain to do important programming work badly. So he was taking the middle of the road approach here because he is defending people he went to school with. Is this really a valid argument for saying that offshore code is good? Really? So just because he knew a few guys, all of the sins of these other ignoramuses is forgiven? I don't think so.
So he said we should talk later, it is obvious I upset him because I wouldn't letup on the point that outsourcing programming is a BAD fucking idea. It always is and always will be a bad idea because these fucking smug holier than cow attitudes that you get from India will always make those fucking rag head red dotted idiots think that what they are doing is "good" or worse yet, "excellent" code. These fucking idiots resent the fact that they make low wages and they take it out on their work by doing a quick and shitty job. They are fully aware of how bad their fucking code is. I've had my share of bad experiences with coders from India, fuck them.
Fucking ridiculous.
Friday, June 29, 2012
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Gluttonous Coworkers
You ever work at a place where your employer will be kind enough to purchase snacks for the office? Yeah? Do you have coworkers who think it is okay to exploit this kindness by making the office snacks their daily goddamn breakfast, lunch and dinner? Yeah? That shit really pisses me the fuck off. So there are snacks in the office, but I can never get to them because by the time I want a fucking snack they are all gone.
On my floor I work with a total of 3 people, including myself it makes it 4. My direct colleague and I do not horde or eat shit tons of snacks. Out of the remaining two people, one of them is on a diet and will not touch any of the crap we have as snacks. That leaves one person... this one person continues to eat like a fucking pig every day and then complains that their side hurts... Their lunch and dinner consists of eating McDonalds or any other shitty food and then they have the glaring gall to complain about it. This fucking idiot is eating all the snacks by herself and not leaving shit for anyone else that wants it...
One more thing to just let go, small potatoes, but you know what? It is still bullshit.
On my floor I work with a total of 3 people, including myself it makes it 4. My direct colleague and I do not horde or eat shit tons of snacks. Out of the remaining two people, one of them is on a diet and will not touch any of the crap we have as snacks. That leaves one person... this one person continues to eat like a fucking pig every day and then complains that their side hurts... Their lunch and dinner consists of eating McDonalds or any other shitty food and then they have the glaring gall to complain about it. This fucking idiot is eating all the snacks by herself and not leaving shit for anyone else that wants it...
One more thing to just let go, small potatoes, but you know what? It is still bullshit.
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Religious Terms
Let's get something perfectly clear. I hate religion. I, like the late Christopher Hitchens, think that religion poisons everything. If you have not read or listened to his book "God is not Great" then I strongly suggest doing so. It makes a lot of things about the many fallacies and short comings of god & religion perfectly clear.
That being said, I want to clearly state the following: People who are blatantly ignoring key principles of a religion they pretend to be practicing are not religious and should stop trying to pretend to be. Further more they cannot have it both ways.
Examples:
1. Any religion that prohibits gay people of any kind. I'm sorry, but gay people are really goddamn stupid if they think they can just conveniently forget what it says in a religious text about what they are doing sexually. Therefore you are not practicing the religion correctly which ultimately means you are not religious. End of story. Good day, you lose sir!
2. There are different religious sects of each religion usually. I know Judaism very well, so I will use that religion as an example. There are different sects of Judaism, but only a few are actually practiced correctly. You cannot break some of the rules for convenience and still consider yourself to be religious. To generalize it there are orthodox Jews and reformist Jews. Reformist Jews cut corners, such as not obeying the Sabbath by using a loud speaker at the synagogue on a Saturday, driving and/or essentially doing everything you aren't supposed to be doing on the Sabbath.
Religion is an all or nothing game. You can't have it both ways. So to those people who think that keeping one foot in the door is going to keep them on good terms with the magical bogey man in the sky: stop lying to yourselves. Who do you think you are fooling, seriously? If you can get your religions to change the rules then great, until then quit your bitching and stop half assing your worship. Either you are all in or all out.
That being said, I want to clearly state the following: People who are blatantly ignoring key principles of a religion they pretend to be practicing are not religious and should stop trying to pretend to be. Further more they cannot have it both ways.
Examples:
1. Any religion that prohibits gay people of any kind. I'm sorry, but gay people are really goddamn stupid if they think they can just conveniently forget what it says in a religious text about what they are doing sexually. Therefore you are not practicing the religion correctly which ultimately means you are not religious. End of story. Good day, you lose sir!
2. There are different religious sects of each religion usually. I know Judaism very well, so I will use that religion as an example. There are different sects of Judaism, but only a few are actually practiced correctly. You cannot break some of the rules for convenience and still consider yourself to be religious. To generalize it there are orthodox Jews and reformist Jews. Reformist Jews cut corners, such as not obeying the Sabbath by using a loud speaker at the synagogue on a Saturday, driving and/or essentially doing everything you aren't supposed to be doing on the Sabbath.
Religion is an all or nothing game. You can't have it both ways. So to those people who think that keeping one foot in the door is going to keep them on good terms with the magical bogey man in the sky: stop lying to yourselves. Who do you think you are fooling, seriously? If you can get your religions to change the rules then great, until then quit your bitching and stop half assing your worship. Either you are all in or all out.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Sinuses
I can't breath most of the time. It is getting to the point where I am tortured because it is just so bad. Asphixiated is how I can describe feeling most of the time. I have complained about this before, but here I go again.
If you want to know what it feels like to be me all day and all year: hold one nostril closed and breath with your mouth shut or with your mouth open all day long. You may alternate nostrils randomly because that happens to me too. Only one of the two is allowed to be open. There are very rare occasions during the day where both are open. Sometimes while eating and most of the time during exercise.
For a lack of better words, it is absolutely miserable and I hate it. I take Claritin D because the psudophedrine (120 mg) in it takes the swelling down in my nostrils so I can breath and the Loretadine (10 mg) fights the actual allergy. When I don't require loretadine, which is an anti-histamine, I just take a Sudafed like pill only which is exactly like Claritin D minus the Loretadine.
I have come to a conclusion. My allergies will not stop hurting me and the pills sometimes don't work which is an even more miserable situation. Imagine the one thing that is supposed to put out a fire doesn't do a goddamn thing. Hoplessness is the feeling. I have decided to look for an alterior path which is and probably will be corrective surgery.
The surgery I seek is called Non-Cosmetic Rhinoplasty. A plastic surgeon will go into your nose and fucking cut out the bullshit that is preventing you from breathing. Fuck this bullshit where your body is trying to kill you because of some dust. Stupid design. I would much rather have the airholes in my nose drilled larger so I can fucking breath clearly, at will, for once in my goddamn life.
Do you know how miserable it is to not be able to breath through your nose? Trust me, breathing through your mouth is not the same at all.
I suspect if I get this done, I will have more energy and possibly even lose more weight. Breathing is quite important.
Of course. Like everything else, it comes at a price. Not sure how I would pay for it, but I will see what I can do.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
So that's what it is called!
All of my bitching about incompetent employees and people in positions of power that they did not earn or deserve to be in has apparently been defined here. It is called the Peter Principle. I had no idea that this was defined anywhere, but hell now I know what to call it.
I might even dub those people that fit the bill as Peters. Maybe that is the dad from Family Guy is named Peter? It makes 100% sense too.
I might even dub those people that fit the bill as Peters. Maybe that is the dad from Family Guy is named Peter? It makes 100% sense too.
Monday, June 18, 2012
Women
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| Even though her face wasn't very attractive, she had a banging body. |
I am always very surprised to find out more and more things about women and how they operate. It just never ocurred to me before how many things they do on purpose. For example women who wear shorts, most of the time those shorts are way too short. They will deliberately buy a size too small so it looks more sexual or what we refer to as "looks good" or "looks great on you". I am a huge pervert so trust me when I say I don't mind. I love seeing a hot chick in super tight clothes or extremely short anything. To me it is just porn. It also leaves room for me and others to make pre-judgment. The women who dress like this in public want Attention because they KNOW how great they look. Some of them are attention whores and want attention all of the time so they dress very provocatively. I would never want a relationship with someone like that. Very little regard for their well being, such as being raped and no care of what others think. Since I am male, when I see such things all I can think about is fucking them. It's all porn to me.
Just like women have a ladder system, I have a ladder system. My ladder system is simple and I apply it to everyone. For men it is: you are a threat until you prove to me that you are not. For women it is: you are nothing more than a cum dumpster to me until you prove to me that you posess knowledge and independance. I don't care how nice anyone is. They need to prove to be worthy of my time until I give them any. I think all men think the same way when it comes to inappropriately dressed women, "Man I would fuck that." This is simply the truth. Now what this really means is only that, I would like to use your body and that's all. This is why men are all dogs and platonic relationships do not exist. Platonic relationships are a myth. If you have a male friend that is not gay, then he wants to fuck you badly. Either that or you are butt ugly. That is the truth. The only time I would be "friends" with a girl is when I was trying to get to know her better for a relationship and of course the sex. It is called attraction and I am not ashamed to describe how it works. All men operate this way on some level or another, some are just exceedingly cocksure and others are beta males. Some of us don't want to have to beat the shit out of the alphas and refuse to be a beta.
I learned during my highschool years that you don't want to date the girls who want the bad boy. They aren't mentally prepared for a real relationship and if they don't get past that point when they get older; then they are nothing more than a cum dumpster. I hated that shit. There was always that girl you wanted to fuck until your dick fell off in highschool, but that was usually it. High schoolers have no clue what love is, I am an adult and I can't explain the concept. Love is an inexplicable feeling and it doesn't come from the loins. I swore I was in love with certain girls in my before college years. I looked weird, I was still growing, still maturing, so girls for me was an absolute no go. No matter how honest, how much I bought, how much I tried to give my love, no one would receive it. There were about 4 or 5 girls like that in my younger life. Looking at them now, I laugh. They are either in bad shape, pregnant or miserable. Fuck'em. They didn't want to be with me back then, they are the losers, not me I didn't lose anything.
There is one girl of the 4 or 5 who hurt me very badly. She married some dude from Japan. I hope she was in Japan during the earth quakes. I mean that. She really pissed me off and wasted my time. I know it is difficuilt, but she could have simply told me that she wasn't interested. I remember calling her house to talk to her and at one point her brother or mother would pick up telling me she wasn't home. I remember one time specifically when I finally figured out she was too much of a gutless punk to tell me she wasn't interested. Her brother picked up the phone and started yelling at me, told me to stop calling and bothering her. Mind you, I wouldn't have done this if she would have just set me straight at school. She was always telling me we were cool in person, but when she wasn't face to face she didn't mind hiding from me and being a fucking coward. That shit sure was complicated. I have her to thank and the other bitches who didn't think I was worth their while for my current feelings and views on women.
I respect women with a very high regard as peers, most of the time. On a personal level though, anyone who isn't a friend or my wife is just an object to me. I could give a shit about your well being or what you are about. I just want to fuck you. Just saying. Especially the bitches who embrace their sexuality for their own gain. There have been countless times where I am at work and some twat uses her sex appeal to get what she wants from the boss which would never fly for anyone else in the office. Women can't have it both ways, but somehow they manage to. I am all for equality among men and women, but they have to draw the line too.
I don't practice what I think though out of self respect and for my wife. I love my wife, she is the best things that has ever happened to me and I don't miss or want any other woman in my life. No one can fill her shoes. Like I said before all others are eye candy, objects, public porn.
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Money Money Money!
So as everyone knows, if money were a woman I would make love to it and marry it. BUT its not, so I will just love it for its abilities. I am just happy that my finances are chugging along here. Selling my old car and leasing a new one, best idea ever. I now drive a fully loaded machine and I got 8K for my old 2007 (5 years old) car.
That 8K will pay for about 80% of my wedding ceremony. Fun times. I don't want to part with it but fuck it, it has to be done.
The plan after December, January 1st 2013 is to immediately start hammering my student loans. Going to do 5K chunks which is going to be 6 payments total. I am going to pay down the federal first. Then port the monthly payments to savings to build the 5K faster for the private loans. Not to mention the monthly payments I am already making with the private loan will help reduce the total anyhow. So in reality it might not be a total of 6 payments, it could be a smidge less.
I guestimate 6 payments though. I am excited because after I pay off my loans I won't have this debt looming over my head and I will have two less bills to worry about each month which makes me very happy.
Although my newly leased car did take the place of those monthly payments, but meh it was necessary. I will be very happy when these bills are behind me, because then I can look forward to try to buy a house again. Although this time I am very happy with where I live and I don't think I want to leave. I want to make it my own. The association fees are rather steep unfortunately, but meh it includes water, cable and internet which is nice.
That 8K will pay for about 80% of my wedding ceremony. Fun times. I don't want to part with it but fuck it, it has to be done.
The plan after December, January 1st 2013 is to immediately start hammering my student loans. Going to do 5K chunks which is going to be 6 payments total. I am going to pay down the federal first. Then port the monthly payments to savings to build the 5K faster for the private loans. Not to mention the monthly payments I am already making with the private loan will help reduce the total anyhow. So in reality it might not be a total of 6 payments, it could be a smidge less.
I guestimate 6 payments though. I am excited because after I pay off my loans I won't have this debt looming over my head and I will have two less bills to worry about each month which makes me very happy.
Although my newly leased car did take the place of those monthly payments, but meh it was necessary. I will be very happy when these bills are behind me, because then I can look forward to try to buy a house again. Although this time I am very happy with where I live and I don't think I want to leave. I want to make it my own. The association fees are rather steep unfortunately, but meh it includes water, cable and internet which is nice.
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Degenerative Work Ethic
I have, seen/ heard about, numerous cases where a person has gotten a job, worked the job their whole adult life then retired happily.
I have seen the opposite too and I am sure people have heard about it or seen it. Someone gets a job, works their job and is laid off when they are too old or obsolete to be replaced by someone younger and cheaper.
This is something that I have kept in the forefront of my mind for a while now. I am worried about this and I have posted about it before. The few things I have going for me is that I don't feel that people owe me anything unless I work hard for it and I am very easy to work with. I am self motivated most of the time and I have the drive to learn, aka: self educate.
I will keep going at something until I achieve it usually. I strive my hardest to learn about pretty much everything in my field. I don't want to be replaced by some young piece of crap who doesn't know anything. I used to be a young piece of crap who knew plenty but was struggling to find a job. I am very sure I never replaced anyone who didn't deserve it. Every time I fill a position I am praised and missed when I leave.
My point is, stay sharp, keep your options open and never give up. Otherwise you will degrade and that is no one elses' fault except your own. People don't like hearing the truth, but I think people need to know when to throw iin the towel and quit. I think it is very wrong for a person to be wasting everyone elses' time and money when they can't get their job done.
Just because a person is nice doesn't mean they are competent. No matter what personal problem they have or any amount of children they need to support. Their poor life decisions should not control the health of a team or its efficiency. Inefficiency costs money and fucks over moral which breeds resentment.
I have seen the opposite too and I am sure people have heard about it or seen it. Someone gets a job, works their job and is laid off when they are too old or obsolete to be replaced by someone younger and cheaper.
This is something that I have kept in the forefront of my mind for a while now. I am worried about this and I have posted about it before. The few things I have going for me is that I don't feel that people owe me anything unless I work hard for it and I am very easy to work with. I am self motivated most of the time and I have the drive to learn, aka: self educate.
I will keep going at something until I achieve it usually. I strive my hardest to learn about pretty much everything in my field. I don't want to be replaced by some young piece of crap who doesn't know anything. I used to be a young piece of crap who knew plenty but was struggling to find a job. I am very sure I never replaced anyone who didn't deserve it. Every time I fill a position I am praised and missed when I leave.
My point is, stay sharp, keep your options open and never give up. Otherwise you will degrade and that is no one elses' fault except your own. People don't like hearing the truth, but I think people need to know when to throw iin the towel and quit. I think it is very wrong for a person to be wasting everyone elses' time and money when they can't get their job done.
Just because a person is nice doesn't mean they are competent. No matter what personal problem they have or any amount of children they need to support. Their poor life decisions should not control the health of a team or its efficiency. Inefficiency costs money and fucks over moral which breeds resentment.
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
working with your boss friend
So I have been working consistent 12 hour days as of late. I am not happy about it and I need to have a talk with my co worker about it. The problem is there is a strange work dynamic between us that is good and bad. I essentially work longer hours than he does right now and it sucks major donkey dick.
He lives further away than I do which sucks. He has allergies that are bad enough to kill an elephant if a sinus infection could be passed on that way. So it is rough for him to get to work I sympathize because I know what it is like having to make a long shitty commute and having bad allergies.
Anyhow, the main problem I have now is we start working at different times. He starts at 12 and I start at 9. So if there is a problem I need his help with I have at least 12. Worse yet sometimes he doesn't realize something needs to be done until about 6:30 which is quitting time for me. So I get stuck at work from 9 to 9 which fucking sucks...
So it is time to have a chat.
He lives further away than I do which sucks. He has allergies that are bad enough to kill an elephant if a sinus infection could be passed on that way. So it is rough for him to get to work I sympathize because I know what it is like having to make a long shitty commute and having bad allergies.
Anyhow, the main problem I have now is we start working at different times. He starts at 12 and I start at 9. So if there is a problem I need his help with I have at least 12. Worse yet sometimes he doesn't realize something needs to be done until about 6:30 which is quitting time for me. So I get stuck at work from 9 to 9 which fucking sucks...
So it is time to have a chat.
Monday, June 11, 2012
Consideration
I love the lack of respect and consideration people can have sometimes. I went to my doctors office where they have vallet, which I hate. I hate vallet service. I don't like the idea of giving my car to a complete stranger. Anyhow, my appointment is at 8. Lucky me the mandatory bullshit vallet service isn't open until 8.
Hrmmm, that's a scheduling conflict as far as I am concerned. So I walked up to the vallet guy and told him. Hi, I know it is a little early, but I have an appointment at 8, can I give you my keys now because I need to go to my appointment. To which he replied in broken english, "Please wait two minute, we open Eight." I then told him in broken Spanish the same thing again, to which he replied the same shit in English.
Fucking asshole.
Is it my fault that this shit is scheduled at exactly the same time, I just wanted to drop my keys off with this stranger vallet asshole so I wouldn't be late for my goddamn appointment. Instead I have fucking Pablo telling me I have to wait two minutes which is confusing because in two minutes it wasn't going to be 8 anyhow it was going to be 7:52. Therefore instead of giving me shit, he could have just taken my fucking keys and let me go on my merry way.
The worst part of all this is, I was afraid that I was going to be late and make my doctor wait for me. WRONG - no one was there yet. I stood in the hall for 10 - 15 minutes until the doctor happened to show up by chance. So that made me feel like an asshole for giving the guy downstairs shit. I actually wasn't rude to him, it was just impossible to properly communicate with his banana boat ass because he hardly spoke English.
My tolerance for non-English speaking people has gone down exponentially. Tired of living in a 3rd world state with so many goddamn uneducated hispanics. I don't mind educated of any race or ethnicity, but the uneducated sections with the low paying jobs can blow me.
Hrmmm, that's a scheduling conflict as far as I am concerned. So I walked up to the vallet guy and told him. Hi, I know it is a little early, but I have an appointment at 8, can I give you my keys now because I need to go to my appointment. To which he replied in broken english, "Please wait two minute, we open Eight." I then told him in broken Spanish the same thing again, to which he replied the same shit in English.
Fucking asshole.
Is it my fault that this shit is scheduled at exactly the same time, I just wanted to drop my keys off with this stranger vallet asshole so I wouldn't be late for my goddamn appointment. Instead I have fucking Pablo telling me I have to wait two minutes which is confusing because in two minutes it wasn't going to be 8 anyhow it was going to be 7:52. Therefore instead of giving me shit, he could have just taken my fucking keys and let me go on my merry way.
The worst part of all this is, I was afraid that I was going to be late and make my doctor wait for me. WRONG - no one was there yet. I stood in the hall for 10 - 15 minutes until the doctor happened to show up by chance. So that made me feel like an asshole for giving the guy downstairs shit. I actually wasn't rude to him, it was just impossible to properly communicate with his banana boat ass because he hardly spoke English.
My tolerance for non-English speaking people has gone down exponentially. Tired of living in a 3rd world state with so many goddamn uneducated hispanics. I don't mind educated of any race or ethnicity, but the uneducated sections with the low paying jobs can blow me.
Friday, June 8, 2012
Site Stats
What up Russia! Yall use Linux primarily over there huh which explains why most of the browsers would be Firefox. So do you all get to my site by mistake or do you actually want to read what I have to say?
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Silly Dreams
Well I am playing the lotto, haven't won yet and if I do I will definitely talk about it. Let me review why I am doing this. The lottery is a good $104 per year investment because it has the same shit odds of doing well as the stock market or your 401K.
Therefore, for 104 dollars a year I will definitely play the lottery untill I win or die, which ever comes first. If you are wondering why 104, it is because they draw twice a week, there are 52 weeks in a year so that is 104 draws in a full year.
Just imagine winning the lottery. Oh man all of my life issues would be solved forever. I would be set indefinitely. My favorite part would be that I could still go to work, but not give two shits if anything happened to my job. I would totally go back to my old job and rock the boat if I could. Possibly buy out a good chunk of their company stock so I could have influence.
My debts would be paid off and I could actually have a retirement plan. The stress of every day life wouldn't matter anymore. I would have a maid and possibly a personal chef or even a butler. Exciting.
Therefore, for 104 dollars a year I will definitely play the lottery untill I win or die, which ever comes first. If you are wondering why 104, it is because they draw twice a week, there are 52 weeks in a year so that is 104 draws in a full year.
Just imagine winning the lottery. Oh man all of my life issues would be solved forever. I would be set indefinitely. My favorite part would be that I could still go to work, but not give two shits if anything happened to my job. I would totally go back to my old job and rock the boat if I could. Possibly buy out a good chunk of their company stock so I could have influence.
My debts would be paid off and I could actually have a retirement plan. The stress of every day life wouldn't matter anymore. I would have a maid and possibly a personal chef or even a butler. Exciting.
Annoyance
So I had a really horrendous 3 day weekend. My AC died on Friday night, the start of my 3 day weekend... I had a lot of things planned, but at 85 degrees in my house, it was hard to get anything that required any sort of concentration done. Needless to say, I am quite pissed off. Luckily the AC guy came out on Monday, he found the problem, but couldn't fix it because his replacement part was bad too.
Then he was supposed to come over Tuesday night and he flaked out. Didn't bother to even call me, I called him. "Oh, sorry too much work today, maybe tomorrow..." He asked what time was good for me, I said 8AM, he said that is too early. Okay then how about 7PM? Okay...
Well he didn't show up again on Wednesday and didn't bother to call either, we called him and he said he would be too busy working somewhere else. Okay what ever asshole. We called the landlord and he said to try another service, we did so and got someone over within the hour. These guys were awesome, they had to rewire fucking everything because pretty much all of the components were burned out, but whatever it got the AC going again. This piece of crap AC has not been maintained, covered in dirt, dust, black mold and hair, it is dying slowly. The only reason it seems to have burned out to begin with is because of a Freon leak. Fucking awesome. The only reason there is a Freon leak is because the AC is in horrible condition. The coils are falling apart around the condenser and the coils on the air handler are rusting and covered in muck so they are clogged. Poor airflow + lack of Freon = overworked compressor, yields, burned out system.
So I typed up a nice long laundry list of problems for the landlord to look at and he hasn't responded yet. Either way we deducted over $500 dollars from rent for the repairs. This was a fuck you job because the original asshole didn't bother coming out to look at it, then I find out later he blamed me for the condition of the AC as the reason he didn't want to work on it. Plus the additional fuck you was that we called a service after hours, this bumps up the rate. Too fucking bad, if I owned property I would make damn sure it was maintained. I feel no remorse for this.
Then he was supposed to come over Tuesday night and he flaked out. Didn't bother to even call me, I called him. "Oh, sorry too much work today, maybe tomorrow..." He asked what time was good for me, I said 8AM, he said that is too early. Okay then how about 7PM? Okay...
Well he didn't show up again on Wednesday and didn't bother to call either, we called him and he said he would be too busy working somewhere else. Okay what ever asshole. We called the landlord and he said to try another service, we did so and got someone over within the hour. These guys were awesome, they had to rewire fucking everything because pretty much all of the components were burned out, but whatever it got the AC going again. This piece of crap AC has not been maintained, covered in dirt, dust, black mold and hair, it is dying slowly. The only reason it seems to have burned out to begin with is because of a Freon leak. Fucking awesome. The only reason there is a Freon leak is because the AC is in horrible condition. The coils are falling apart around the condenser and the coils on the air handler are rusting and covered in muck so they are clogged. Poor airflow + lack of Freon = overworked compressor, yields, burned out system.
So I typed up a nice long laundry list of problems for the landlord to look at and he hasn't responded yet. Either way we deducted over $500 dollars from rent for the repairs. This was a fuck you job because the original asshole didn't bother coming out to look at it, then I find out later he blamed me for the condition of the AC as the reason he didn't want to work on it. Plus the additional fuck you was that we called a service after hours, this bumps up the rate. Too fucking bad, if I owned property I would make damn sure it was maintained. I feel no remorse for this.
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Genetic Deterioration
I complained about the likely hood that I will contract cancer and well I still think that is a total possibility, but instead I have received a different genetic gift.
I went to a cardiologist to be cleared for a clonoscopy which is now not even a priority. I wore a heart monitor for 10 days. The readings showed that my heart rate dips down to the low 30s at times about 34 bpm and my personal favorite, my heart stops in my sleep.
My heart apparently stopped in my sleep for about 2 seconds. I don't breath well as is, I believe that I have sleep apbnea. I have woken up gasping for air as if someone was choking me to death three times in my life. So the doctor isn't pleased about this and nor am I. Before this doing a stress test was optional and a sleep study was optional. Now they are both mandatory.
I have a faulty ticker. Yay. And a heart murmur to boot. However the heart murmur is harmless I am told.
Ahhh, now the good part. So Aetna denied my claim for a sleep study because, I am paraphrasing, you need to be near death in order to qualify. Look at this link for details. You must have a congenitive heart defect such has CHF or congenitive heart failure. CHF is very bad, it is when your heart doesn't pump fast enough and your lungs fill with blood drowning you in your own fluids.
So once again, FUCK YOU AETNA. Thanks for being human about this. I might die in my sleep, but you mother fuckers will sleep well knowing that you saved money not paying for my treatment. It isn't like I don't pay my health insurance each month.
So now they want me to wear some other kind of fucking monitor so that we can prove that I need to go to a sleep study. Hopefully I will stay alive long enough to see the goddamn results. I don't feel 100% like my life is in danger, but you never know with heart problems. My father and uncle died of heart disease, I don't want to go out that way especially since I am healthy. I didn't bring any of this on, I don't fucking drink or smoke. I am not obese and I am not diabetic. My labs are clean! This is a genetic problem.
I went to a cardiologist to be cleared for a clonoscopy which is now not even a priority. I wore a heart monitor for 10 days. The readings showed that my heart rate dips down to the low 30s at times about 34 bpm and my personal favorite, my heart stops in my sleep.
My heart apparently stopped in my sleep for about 2 seconds. I don't breath well as is, I believe that I have sleep apbnea. I have woken up gasping for air as if someone was choking me to death three times in my life. So the doctor isn't pleased about this and nor am I. Before this doing a stress test was optional and a sleep study was optional. Now they are both mandatory.
I have a faulty ticker. Yay. And a heart murmur to boot. However the heart murmur is harmless I am told.
Ahhh, now the good part. So Aetna denied my claim for a sleep study because, I am paraphrasing, you need to be near death in order to qualify. Look at this link for details. You must have a congenitive heart defect such has CHF or congenitive heart failure. CHF is very bad, it is when your heart doesn't pump fast enough and your lungs fill with blood drowning you in your own fluids.
So once again, FUCK YOU AETNA. Thanks for being human about this. I might die in my sleep, but you mother fuckers will sleep well knowing that you saved money not paying for my treatment. It isn't like I don't pay my health insurance each month.
So now they want me to wear some other kind of fucking monitor so that we can prove that I need to go to a sleep study. Hopefully I will stay alive long enough to see the goddamn results. I don't feel 100% like my life is in danger, but you never know with heart problems. My father and uncle died of heart disease, I don't want to go out that way especially since I am healthy. I didn't bring any of this on, I don't fucking drink or smoke. I am not obese and I am not diabetic. My labs are clean! This is a genetic problem.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Time or the Lack There Of
I love my friends, I love hanging out, having great conversation over dinner and booze. It is my preferred thing to do ideally. I love hanging out and relaxing, however this is a luxury right now that I don't want.
I would much rather not do ANYTHING right now. I have several projects I am working on, trying my goddamn-ist to make money on the side. I want to finish creating some things whether it is for fun or not. I am relearning circuits right now so I can get a better understanding of electronics period.
The point is I have shit to do and my friends always want to hang out and see me. Which I fully appreciate, but at the same time I wonder why it is that they have all this free time.
The other problem is that I know so many people that it is hard to keep up with the rotations. By the time I have seen one group, it is time to see the next group. This is annoying because I don't have any personal time and I can't work on my projects. I am being round robined to death.
I am quite annoyed with some people who have got it made and want to just enjoy life, which is fine, but then they tell me I need to learn to relax. I hate hearing that right now, being told to learn to relax is really goddamn annoying and insulting because they have no idea what they are talking about. I am pretty much shitting a brick over the thought of retirement because it is a legitamate fear. Not having money to retire and there is no guaranteed social security either. Learn to relax? Go fuck yourself learn to relax.
The only people who can sit back and relax are the people who have nothing to worry about. Day in day out doing nothing but indulging because they have a trust or a large inheritance. Fuck this shit.
I would much rather not do ANYTHING right now. I have several projects I am working on, trying my goddamn-ist to make money on the side. I want to finish creating some things whether it is for fun or not. I am relearning circuits right now so I can get a better understanding of electronics period.
The point is I have shit to do and my friends always want to hang out and see me. Which I fully appreciate, but at the same time I wonder why it is that they have all this free time.
The other problem is that I know so many people that it is hard to keep up with the rotations. By the time I have seen one group, it is time to see the next group. This is annoying because I don't have any personal time and I can't work on my projects. I am being round robined to death.
I am quite annoyed with some people who have got it made and want to just enjoy life, which is fine, but then they tell me I need to learn to relax. I hate hearing that right now, being told to learn to relax is really goddamn annoying and insulting because they have no idea what they are talking about. I am pretty much shitting a brick over the thought of retirement because it is a legitamate fear. Not having money to retire and there is no guaranteed social security either. Learn to relax? Go fuck yourself learn to relax.
The only people who can sit back and relax are the people who have nothing to worry about. Day in day out doing nothing but indulging because they have a trust or a large inheritance. Fuck this shit.
Monday, June 4, 2012
The Arrogant Professors
I really hated a lot of the shitty professors from my college. I had shitty professors for just about every one of my core classes which makes me sad. I am tired of arguing with people about a very black and white issue. I don't know about you all, I went to college to learn, specifically I went for engineering. I don't feel that I got what I paid for frankly. The professors I had were uncaring, un-knowledgeable assholes for the most part. There were indeed the exceptions, but they were few and far in between.
The shitty professors somehow flourished at my college, they had tenor and couldn't give a shit what happened to you. There are two professors I have in mind who I hated the most. One is an FPL drone pawn operative and the other is a piece of shit who has a lot of ties to IBM. They will remain nameless until I feel safe enough to reveal where I went to school and the assholes' names. They both suck and were more than okay with screwing you over if they wanted to.
Professors get defensive when you explain to them why you thought another professor was a bad apple. I made that mistake once, I won't bother again. All I remember is the professor I was talking to basically telling me that I am probably at fault, that I didn't try hard enough or that I was a bad student blaming the professor for my short comings...
It is easy to pass the blame and I mean that on both parts. The student and the professor. However, one thing is certain, there is something wrong when people who graduated from a particular school are black listed from a company for hire. They can't all be bad students, it is the school's fault and the shit professors who teach there. It is the program failing. My college was black listed from Motorola and I think Lockheed Martin. Not sure if the ban still exists, but to give you an idea of how bad this was, all the people hired by Motorola from my college were all fired just for being from my college. A similar incident occurred at Lockheed Martin. That is bad and very telling of the quality of education being produced from that university.
Luckily I am very good at programming, so not finding an engineering job was not a problem for me. I am sad that I couldn't work as an engineer at least once, but "it's okay" I keep telling myself "I will practice in my free time". And I have... *sigh*
My school thinks it is a good idea to screw over its students by making them use technician's manuals as college books... I am not sure if you have ever read a technician's manual, but that shit is useless unless you know the subject material already. Fuck that shit. I think it is unfair to make students use poor reading material with no practicality at all. It should be illegal and I think the students need to approve the books, not the board or the professors. They don't use the book, the students do.
The books I hate the most are the books that don't explain how to do problems in the book. This to me should be illegal because it is a waste of goddamn time to even read the shit if you won't be able to solve the practice problems in the book! I don't think answers to problems should be absconded either, every student should have the opportunity to review the answers to a problem. There shouldn't be this teacher's manual crap, students need access to answers to make sure they know what they are doing.
Lastly I don't think anyone should be tested anymore unless there is a good reason for it. I will explain more in a followup post.
The shitty professors somehow flourished at my college, they had tenor and couldn't give a shit what happened to you. There are two professors I have in mind who I hated the most. One is an FPL drone pawn operative and the other is a piece of shit who has a lot of ties to IBM. They will remain nameless until I feel safe enough to reveal where I went to school and the assholes' names. They both suck and were more than okay with screwing you over if they wanted to.
Professors get defensive when you explain to them why you thought another professor was a bad apple. I made that mistake once, I won't bother again. All I remember is the professor I was talking to basically telling me that I am probably at fault, that I didn't try hard enough or that I was a bad student blaming the professor for my short comings...
It is easy to pass the blame and I mean that on both parts. The student and the professor. However, one thing is certain, there is something wrong when people who graduated from a particular school are black listed from a company for hire. They can't all be bad students, it is the school's fault and the shit professors who teach there. It is the program failing. My college was black listed from Motorola and I think Lockheed Martin. Not sure if the ban still exists, but to give you an idea of how bad this was, all the people hired by Motorola from my college were all fired just for being from my college. A similar incident occurred at Lockheed Martin. That is bad and very telling of the quality of education being produced from that university.
Luckily I am very good at programming, so not finding an engineering job was not a problem for me. I am sad that I couldn't work as an engineer at least once, but "it's okay" I keep telling myself "I will practice in my free time". And I have... *sigh*
My school thinks it is a good idea to screw over its students by making them use technician's manuals as college books... I am not sure if you have ever read a technician's manual, but that shit is useless unless you know the subject material already. Fuck that shit. I think it is unfair to make students use poor reading material with no practicality at all. It should be illegal and I think the students need to approve the books, not the board or the professors. They don't use the book, the students do.
The books I hate the most are the books that don't explain how to do problems in the book. This to me should be illegal because it is a waste of goddamn time to even read the shit if you won't be able to solve the practice problems in the book! I don't think answers to problems should be absconded either, every student should have the opportunity to review the answers to a problem. There shouldn't be this teacher's manual crap, students need access to answers to make sure they know what they are doing.
Lastly I don't think anyone should be tested anymore unless there is a good reason for it. I will explain more in a followup post.
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