I have a problem that I have been struggling with since I was a child. I realized at a very young age that I could not see my own face unless I looked in a mirror. This was very troubling to me because then I realized that when I spoke to myself "In my head" or thought to myself rather, it was the voice of an adult. Which I soon came to realize was going to be my adult speaking voice. I figured all this out watching "The Wonder Years" with Fred Savage who also thought in a very adult voice.
These problems snow balled into one bigger problem and that is, when I close my eyes and go to sleep does the world stop moving and does everything cease to exist momentarily. Then taking this same concern a step closer, I started to fear death, not because I am afraid of dying but because I don't know what is going to happen to me. This endless thought cycle depresses me because it then leads me to the feeling I struggle with the most and that is demotivating. Everything I do now is to make me happy and comfortable now, but what is the point? So far that is the point, just be as happy and stress free as possible.
However the haunting question remains... what happens when I die? Does the world cease to exist? Do I come back? Do I turn into a wandering soul?
None of those questions can be or will be answered. Ironically I will find out when I die.
Religion gives you false promises and hopes, all unproven crap.
I say come up with your own answer.
My answer is, I don't know how or when, but I will be back. Death cannot stop me.
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