Kevin Smith

I love Kevin Smith. I have been watching Kevin smith grow as a director and all that since before it was a fad. I knew of his films and watched every one of them before they were even popular. One of my favorite things to watch is when he is on stage, the first one I saw was "An Evening With Kevin Smith", I grew great respect for him - I loved Kevin Smith even more then.

The years went on and I saw that he was going through some shit and I started to grow a dislike for him, he was going through an arrogance phase. I watched his recent stand up or as he calls it Q&A, and whatever funk he was going through he is finished with it. He was himself again and very inspirational.

He is a word smith and I love how he just doesn't care about what anyone thinks for the most part. He will take on a challenge, but for the most part he is a laid back guy. I have a lot if respect for him and I am very grateful for his words of encouragement.

His most recent Q&A is called (that I know of) "Burn in Hell Kevin Smith". It was fucking awesome and I feel pumped up. I feel like I can conquer the world after listening to him speak.

This has led me to realize that motivational speaking is something I think I will use to stay inspired and motivated. I have a huge problem with motivation. My motivation comes then goes and stays away for a long time. That is largely in part to my mental and physical health.

I need to get my physical health in check before I bother with mental. My breathing problems and apnea are contributors to my mental state. The lack of oxygen saturation is not helping, my lack of good rest depresses me. These things kill my motivation. I am eating correctly and I weigh proper. I am stringer than I have ever been. I just need to get my breathing under control.

I have so many ideas, I have so many things I want to do and try to sell. I want success, not even fame, I just want fucking success.