Sinuses

I can't breath most of the time. It is getting to the point where I am tortured because it is just so bad. Asphixiated is how I can describe feeling most of the time. I have complained about this before, but here I go again. If you want to know what it feels like to be me all day and all year: hold one nostril closed and breath with your mouth shut or with your mouth open all day long. You may alternate nostrils randomly because that happens to me too. Only one of the two is allowed to be open. There are very rare occasions during the day where both are open. Sometimes while eating and most of the time during exercise. For a lack of better words, it is absolutely miserable and I hate it. I take Claritin D because the psudophedrine (120 mg) in it takes the swelling down in my nostrils so I can breath and the Loretadine (10 mg) fights the actual allergy. When I don't require loretadine, which is an anti-histamine, I just take a Sudafed like pill only which is exactly like Claritin D minus the Loretadine. I have come to a conclusion. My allergies will not stop hurting me and the pills sometimes don't work which is an even more miserable situation. Imagine the one thing that is supposed to put out a fire doesn't do a goddamn thing. Hoplessness is the feeling. I have decided to look for an alterior path which is and probably will be corrective surgery. The surgery I seek is called Non-Cosmetic Rhinoplasty. A plastic surgeon will go into your nose and fucking cut out the bullshit that is preventing you from breathing. Fuck this bullshit where your body is trying to kill you because of some dust. Stupid design. I would much rather have the airholes in my nose drilled larger so I can fucking breath clearly, at will, for once in my goddamn life. Do you know how miserable it is to not be able to breath through your nose? Trust me, breathing through your mouth is not the same at all. I suspect if I get this done, I will have more energy and possibly even lose more weight. Breathing is quite important. Of course. Like everything else, it comes at a price. Not sure how I would pay for it, but I will see what I can do.