I love my friends, I love hanging out, having great conversation over dinner and booze. It is my preferred thing to do ideally. I love hanging out and relaxing, however this is a luxury right now that I don't want.
I would much rather not do ANYTHING right now. I have several projects I am working on, trying my goddamn-ist to make money on the side. I want to finish creating some things whether it is for fun or not. I am relearning circuits right now so I can get a better understanding of electronics period.
The point is I have shit to do and my friends always want to hang out and see me. Which I fully appreciate, but at the same time I wonder why it is that they have all this free time.
The other problem is that I know so many people that it is hard to keep up with the rotations. By the time I have seen one group, it is time to see the next group. This is annoying because I don't have any personal time and I can't work on my projects. I am being round robined to death.
I am quite annoyed with some people who have got it made and want to just enjoy life, which is fine, but then they tell me I need to learn to relax. I hate hearing that right now, being told to learn to relax is really goddamn annoying and insulting because they have no idea what they are talking about. I am pretty much shitting a brick over the thought of retirement because it is a legitamate fear. Not having money to retire and there is no guaranteed social security either. Learn to relax? Go fuck yourself learn to relax.
The only people who can sit back and relax are the people who have nothing to worry about. Day in day out doing nothing but indulging because they have a trust or a large inheritance. Fuck this shit.
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